I Drank Your Piss

What I Did To Hate You

November the Sixth:

"Good morning Gerard.
-You said you'd leave me alone...
-You probably didn't check a calendar, because I'm talking today!"
I quickly check on my phone and he's right October the sixth.
"Remember the first time I punched you?
-Yeah for no reason...
-Punch me the way I did.
-I have no reason to punch you.
-I punched you so you have to punch me!
-This is why you're doing this? So i somehow get my revenge? This isn't how I will think of you anything other than an enemy.
-But I never wanted you to hate me...
-Sorry not sorry i do.
-Just listen to me... it was a beautiful sunny day and I went to school, you were there, all I remember is that I kept staring at you but you never noticed so I punched you...
-What the fuck?!
-I think it's better if you don't ask too much, you'll know why in the end...
-How do you sleep at night?
-I don't...
-That's why you're so fucked up!"
He kept silent for a long moment but kept looking at me.
"I hope you're not gonna punch me now..." and I made him smile bitterly.
"I hope you do..." he took out a pack of cigarettes and landed it to me.
"Smoking is bad.
-You're right... You already think I'm all bad so...
-Why are you doing this, Frank?
-Because I like smoking...
-No, why do you want me to do to you what you used to do to me, while you know that I don't want a revenge?
-To feel what I feel...
-What do you feel?
-Everything...
-That's a lot.

-Probably..." The alarm on my phone started ringing.

"See you tomorrow, Gee!"

"Next month..."