Michael
I've not talked to Madi since the night Cal had video called her. To be honest, I don't know what's wrong with me. That's been five days ago.
Tonight's our concert in Florida. I'm really not looking forward to it.
"Ooh, tonight's show is going to be good." Luke says as he, Calum, and Ashton walk in with smiles on their faces.
"I know. I can't wait!" Ashton says grabbing his drumsticks.
"What's so special about tonight? It's just another show." I shrug and grab my guitar, slinging it over my shoulder.
"Ready?" Calum says as it's time to start.
Luke appears on stage. Then me. Then Calum. Then Ashton.
I don't look out into the crowd like usual. Instead, I look down at my feet wanting to start.
"Hello, Florida! Who's ready to rock?" Luke says into the mic.
"Me.." I mumble. I start strumming my guitar a bit.
The first song we do is Amnesia.
"I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted. I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way you tasted. And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine, are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you. When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you? Sometimes I start to wonder was it just a lie? If what we had was real, how could you be fine? Cos I'm not fine at all. I remember the day you told me you were leaving! I remember the makeup running down your face. And the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them! Like every single wish we ever made. I wish that I could wake up with amnesia. And forget about the stupid little things. Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you, and the memories I never can escape. Cos I'm not fine at all..."
I barely strum the guitar, and sing. I can't get Madi out of my head. I can't get why I'm mad together. I don't get it.
"Alright, now..Michael," Luke looks at me. I'm forced to look back, "how about 'The Only Reason'? I feel like its a good one."
"Whatever." Luke starts strumming his guitar and soon, I have to sing.
"Don't talk, lemme think it over. How we gonna fix this? How we gonna undo all the pain? Tell me, is it even worth it? Looking for a straight line. Taking back the time we can't replace.."
"All the crosswires, just making us tired. Is it too late to bring us back to life?"
"When I close my eyes and try to sleep, I fall apart I find it hard to breathe. You're the reason, the only reason. Even though my dizzy head is numb, I swear my heart is never giving up. You're the reason, the only reason.."
"Don't talk, lemme think it over. How we gonna fix this? How we gonna undo all the pain.."
After the song, I look into the crowd. I try to hold my tears back. I unsuccessfully do so.
My eyes land on the beautiful girl in the front row; Madison Maynard.
I try to smile, but I cry instead.
I wrote 'The Only Reason' when Madi and I had our first fight. I always told her it was for Alisha. She doesn't need to know the truth.
I'm a very emotional guy, and the day I wrote this..I was too emotional. I didn't mean for it to become a song on the album or EP. It somehow did.
An hour later and the show is over.
We gather backstage, and I'm still not happy. I force a smile, though.
"She actually came!" Calum says with a bright smile.
"Of course she did. She'd never let us down, even when we let her down." Luke says back.
I huff and sit on the sofa I really hope none of the fans have backstage passes. That'd make me more disappointed.
"Guys!" A happy voice rings through my ears.
"Madi!" They all excitedly greet her with sweaty hugs.
"I've missed you!"
"We've missed you too."
"Please don't come over here," I mumble. But, she comes anyway.
She slowly and carefully sits beside me. I don't know why it has to be awkward. I mean, we are dating..Right?
"Michael." Madi smiles.
"Madi." The second our eyes meet, I notice how dull they are. Just a second ago, they were bright and blue. Now, they're dull and grey.
"Please, talk to me.".She puts her head down, avoiding all eye contact with me as possible.
"There's nothing to talk about." I shrug and sit back.
"Oh really? Why haven't you called? Why haven't you texted? Why haven't you tried to get in contact with me?" By now, Madi is forcing me to look at her. "Huh? Why?"
"Madi, stop.."
"No, I wont stop until you answer me. Michael, I cried my eyes out for the past two weeks, close to a month, because you haven't talked to me. Tell me what I did, and I'll try to be better."
"Madison, there is nothing to talk about." I repeat, standing up. Before I could walk away, she says:
"There's nothing to talk about, or you just don't want to talk to me anymore? Michael, if this is the payback I get for using you twice while dating Blake, I get it. But, I know I didn't put you through this much hell."
"Madi, we're done! That's it! We are done! Gosh!" I storm away, griping my hair in my hands.
"F-fine. Whatever." Madi exits through the back way crying.
The guys give me evil stares.
What did I do? I didn't mean that, but I know if I follow after her, she'll push me away. I'm just a fuck up..
I sigh and follow after her. I find her sitting down in a corner with her knees to her chest.
"Madi.." I say, my voice breaking.
"No, Michael. I don't want to hear it. You said it yourself; We're done. Go back inside. I'll be alright until I find a taxi to the airport." She sniffles, her head still between her elbows.
"No, Madi..I didn't mean it," I start to cry, "I was angry. I do want to talk. I do have answers for your questions. I don't want to hurt you." I sit beside her, she scoots away.
"Then why did you?"
"Madi, I'm an idiot. I even have the shirt to prove it." I point to the shirt I'm currently wearing. I remember she isn't looking at me.
"You're not an idiot. I am. I left my heart to someone who only wants sex. I'm the idiot." She stands up and wipes her eyes. She walks away, and my heart breaks.
"Madi, please.." I beg, my voice cracking. "Please.."
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