My blue eyed sheriff(A Carl Grimes fan fiction)

Cuts and tears

Ella's P.O.V.

Right now were inside the prison.Rick just cut off half of Hershel's leg because he got bit. I have no clue what to do! Im just standing there starring. Carl squeezes my hand and I look at him. "We have to go get supply's for Hershel he won't survive with out them." Carl says and pulls me to anther place. "Carl it doesn't look like your dad checked here." I say and Carl lets go of my hand then raises up his gun. "Thats because he didn't." Carl says and I pull my gun out and raise it up to. We start looking for a infirmary. "Ella over here I think I found it." Carl says and I walk into the room Carl was in. "Look here's the supplies." Carl says and hands me a bag. I turn around to walk out the door but only come face to face with a walker. I hurried up and pulled out my pocket knife then stabbed it in the head.Then Carl shoots the one that was behind it. "Are you okay?" Carl asks and I nod. We leave and go back to the cell Hershel was in. We walk into the cell and throw the bags on the ground. "Me and Ella got some supplies." Carl says and Lori looks at us angrily. "Carl I know this wasn't Ella's idea! You could have gotten hurt! Don't ever do that agin! You could've got killed or Ella! If she would have gotten hurt it would be your fault! I don't think you want your best friends death to be your fault!" Lori scolds Carl and I look at an angry Carl. "I got the supplies and were okay! None of y'all would have gotten it and Hershel would have died! I saved his life and Ella I would never let anything hurt her!How dare you say that when you now I would kill for this girl?" Carl yells at his mom. "Carl she's your mother!" Beth says and Carl storms off. "Lori we got the supplies and we got out safely! You shouldn't have yelled at him you should've thanked him and then said next time you would like him to go with Rick or something!" I say and walk out of the cell. "Carl." I say and walk into the cell Carl's in. I see him sitting on the bed with his head in his hands. I walk over to him "Carl." I say and put my hand on his leg but he swats it away. "Carl please talk to me." I say and Carl scoots away from me.I get off the bed and kneel in front of Carl. "Carl I'm not leavening until you talk to me I hope you know that." I say and Carl sighs. "My dad before we left the farm he said no more kid stuff. Well here I am doing something to prove that I'm serious about the no more kid stuff and I get yelled at for it!" Carl says and I sit back in the bed. I hug Carl and he hugs back. "She just didn't want you to get hurt." I say and I pull away from Carl then sigh. "Carl I'm worried about you." I say and Carl looks at me. "Why?" Carl asks and I shake my head. "You seem so depressed around your parents. The only time I see you smile is around me. When your with everyone else you look depressed. Carl I need to know if you are, because if you are and your having these thoughts I want to help you. Carl I love you and if that's happening I need to know." I say and Carl frowns. I can see the tears forming in his eyes. "Carl please tell me." I say and put a hand on Carl's leg. "I......I do sometimes." Carl says quietly and a tear falls from his eye. My heart shatters as he says those words. I hug Carl and he starts to cry into my neck. "Oh my god." I say and start to cry. "Carl why didn't you tell me? Baby you know you can tell me anything." I say and put my hand behind Carl's neck. "B-Because I didn't wa-want you to w-worry." Carl says through his cries. "Carl let me see your arms." I say and let more tears fall from my eyes. "No." Carl says and folds his arms up to his chest. "Carl let me see please." I say calmly and Carl shakes his head. I grab his arm and yank it towards me. I pull up his sleeves to see red slashes all up his arms. I cover my mouth with my hand and cry harder. "W-Why? Why would y-you do this t-to yourself? You could've just c-came to me! I could've h-helped you!" I say and put my wet face in Carl's chest. Carl stayed quite and just cries. "Why? Was it something I did?" I ask Carl and look at him. "No Ella no! It wasn't you." Carl says and wipes my tears off my face. "Then why? Please tell me! Carl I can't live in this world with our you!" I say and Carl shakes his head "You wouldn't understand Ella!" Carl says and I take both of Carls arms and look at them. "Please. Please stop." I say and my tears fall on to Carl's arms. "How recent are they?" I ask and Carl sits there quietly. "Carl how recent are they?"I ask agin and he doesn't say anything. "So why do you do it? Baby I know you don't want to answer any of the questions but you have to. Please!" I say and Carl pulls his knees up to his chest. "Because everything's so stressful!Mom and Dad are always fighting! Moms always yelling at me.Were always running! It's just so stressful! Your the only thing that makes me want to live!" Carl says and I shake my head. I stand up and Carl looks at me. "What are you doing?" Carl asks me and I kiss him on the forehead. "Im gonna be right back just stay here. I love you." I say and walk over to Lori and Rick. "THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!YOUR ALWAYS FIGHTING SO YOU NEVER KNEW HOW MUCH YOU WERE HURTING YOUR SON!" I yell at Lori and Rick and they just looked at me with confused and shocked faces. "BECAUSE OF YOUR STUPID FIGHTING YOU'VE NEVER NOTICED HOW YOUR SON HURTS HIMSELF!" I yell and walk up to Rick I start punching his chest. "IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT HE'S DEPRESSED! YOUR MAKING HIM STRESSED ITS ALL YOUR FALUT!" I yell and Daryl pulls me away from Rick. "HE'S HURTING BECAUSE OFF YOU!" I yell and then Daryl hugs me. I cry into his chest and Lori comes next to me. "Ella what do you mean?" She asks me as I cry. "Carl......." Is all I can say and she runs into the cell Carl was in. I cry harder and Daryl hugs me more. "It's okay princess." Daryl says and I his Daryl back. I hear Lori start yelling at Carl and I stand up from Daryl's grip and run into the cell to see Carl crying even more then he was before. "STOP! THIS IS WHY HE'S DEPRESSED! YOU ALWAYS YELL AT HIM AND YOU AND RICK ARE ALWAYS FIGHTING!" I yell and run over to Carl. I hug his waist and he puts his head in my chest. "Shh it's okay. Im here for you it'll be okay. I promise." I say and kiss the top of Carl's head. "I love you." I whisper and lay my head on top of Carl's as he cries. "I love you too."He whispers back and I smile. Lori walks out of the room angrily. "Ill be here for you. Ill help you through this. I promise. Your not gonna have to go through this alone." I say and Carl looks up at me. "Im sorry I didn't tell you." Carl whispers and I shake my head. "Its fine. Your okay and that's all that matters." I say and sigh. "Carl I need what ever your us wing to cut yourself with." I say and Carl nods he slides over to his bag and pulls out a shiny blade. He gives it to me and I put it in my bag."Lets go lay down." I say and Carl nods. I close the curtain that Rick just put up and sit Carl down on the bed.Carl lays down and I lay down next to him.He faces me and I place my hand on the back of his neck, pressing our foreheads together. "Im sorry I didn't notice sooner." I say and Carl shakes his head. "I should've told you I was having these thoughts." Carl says and I kiss his lips. He kisses me back with quite a bit of force. Our lips move in sync and Carl's hands land on my hips. He moves on top of me but never brakes the wonderful kiss. I run my hands through Carl's hair over and over agin and pull on some hair lightly. We pull away out of breath and Carl falls beside me. I look at him and smile. "I love you to the end of the universe and back." Carl says and wraps his arms around my waist. "I love you to the end of the universe and back too." I say and wrap my arms around Carl's neck. I love being able to make him happy when he's sad. I hate to see him sad. I love him and no one ever wants to see the one they love hurting.