My blue eyed sheriff(A Carl Grimes fan fiction)

Nothing to live for

Ella's P.O.V.

"I lost everything!" I say and cry into my knees. Rick sits down next to me and puts a hand on my shoulder. I rip his hand off of me "DONT TOUCH ME!" I yell and stand up walking over to Carl's dead body. "Im so sorry!" I say and cry. "Ella it's gonna be...okay." Rick says and I look at him. "OKAY? RICK HE'S DEAD! GONE!CARL IS GONE! HE WAS YOUR SON HOW COULD YOU SAY IT'S GOING TO BE OKAY? RICK HE'S THE ONLY THING THAT MAKES ME WANT TO LIVE! NOTHING IS OKAY ANYMORE!" I yell and Rick looks at the ground then walks out. "Ella do you want to do it or do you want me?" Hershel asks and holds a gun up. I take it "Me but I want everyone out." I say and Hershel nods then closes the curtain. I look down at Carl and move his hair out of his face. "Im so sorry. It should've been me not you!" I say and kiss Carl's lips on more time before putting the gun up to my temple. I squeeze my eyes closed. "Im so sorry! I love you all so much.Im sorry I couldn't help you Carl but know that I have nothin to live for I'm gonna be with you agin." I say and then feel someone knock the gun out off my hand. I open my eyes to see a worried looking Beth. "Why did you do that?!?" I yell and pick the gun back up. Beth takes it from me and starts to tear up. "Im not letting you do this Ella! Carl wouldn't want you to!" Beth says and I shake my head "Beth I don't want to live this life any more! Give me the god damn gun or ill use mine!" I yell and Beth shakes her head. "No Ella! What about me and Maggie? Huh? You just gonna leave us? Judith your just gonna leave her to have nobody?Your just gonna leave all of us?Judith,Rick,Glenn,Daddy
Carol and if Daryl Even though he's gone off with his brother.Ella we love you and want to be there for you! We just lost one member of our family please don't make us lose anther.If you go the only family Rick will have left is Judith! He just lost his wife and son don't make him lose his god child to." Beth says and I run over to her and hug her. "Im gonna miss him so much!I want him back Beth!I just want Carl back!"I say and cry into Beth's shirt she rubs my back. "Ella." I hear someone say in a weak voice but it's not Beth. I pull away from Beth to see Carl moving around. "Beth d-did he just?" I ask an Beth smiles then nods. "Did he turn?" I ask and Beth shakes her head. "Walkers don't talk." Beth says and I pull my gun out just in case and slowly walk over to Carl. "Ella." Carl groans and I drop the gun next to my feet. "Carl." I say and he opens his eyes. Tears start to flow out my eyes an I fall to the floor next to the bed he was laying on. "He's not gone. He's not gone." I say and cry tears of joy. I stand up and hug Carl. "Oh god Carl! Hershel said you were dead and I couldn't stop crying. I was gonna do something bad that you wouldn't like. You would be mad at me" I say and Carl pulls away from the hug and looks at me. "Ella what were you gonna do?" Carl asks and I shake my head."I don't want to say " I say and Carl pushes back my hair. "It's okay I'm not gonna be mad." Carl says and I shakes me head"Yes you will but ill tell you anyway.I didn't want to live with out you. So I was gonna shoot myself." I say and Carl pulls me onto the bed. "Dont EVER do that!Even if I die.If I die I want you I beat this world. I want you to stay and protect Judith for me." Carl says and hugs me. I pull away and kiss his lips. "I love you so much." I say and put our fore heads together. "I love you too." Carl says and someone walks in"Carl?" I hear Hershel ask and I nod. "He's okay. He's alive." I say and Carl grabs my hand and laces our fingers together. "Wow you lost a lot of blood. I thought you were gone I couldn't even find a pulse. Well ill go get your father." Hershel says and leaves the room. I look at Carl and he wipes my tears off my face. "Its okay baby. Everything's okay." Carl says and pulls me down to lay down with him. I put my head on his chest and my hands "I know it's okay know But it was scary. I thought you were gone and if.....if Beth didn't come in at the time she did I would be dead right know." I say and Carl tenses up at my words. I look for Beth but she left the room.Carl tries to sit up but falls back down in pain. "It's okay what do you want Ill get it for you." I say and Carl smiles. "I want a hug from my Ella." Carl says and I smile I hug him but carefully so I don't hurt him. "Promise me if I ever get shoot agin or turn you won't hurt yourself." Carl says and I sigh "Carl I can't-" "Ella you have to! My dads going crazy and if something ever happened to me who would Judith have left? Just you." Carl says and i nod. "I....I promise." I say and Carl kisses the top of my head. "Carl." I hear Rick say and he walks into the room. Rick sees Carl and smiles "Im glad your okay.You to Ella." Rick says and I give him a confused look. "Beth told us." Rick says and I frown. "Oh sh-she did?" I ask and Rick nods. I hide my face in Carl's chest because I didn't want anyone to know I wanted to kill myself. "Can we have Maggie come in?" Carl asks and Ruck gets Maggie."Why do we need Maggie?" I ask and Carl plays with my hair. "Because you need to talk to her. Im sure Shes worried."Carl says and Maggie walks in. "Oh thank god your okay Carl." Maggie says then looks at me. "Ella are you okay?"Maggie asks and I nod. "Know I am. Im sorry about what I was going to do." I say and Maggie shakes her head. "I know it's hard sweetie. With out Carl it would've been even harder but even if he would be dead we still need you. Me Beth,Daddy,Glenn,Rick,Judith,Carol and even though Daryl's gone Daryl.If one day he came back and heard you were dead. He would freak out. Everyone in the group we need you.We love you like family evade you are our family." Maggie says and I nod. Carl starts to play with my hair. "I know. Im glad Beth stopped me because f she wouldn't have I would be dead and Carl would be alive." I say and Carl frowns. "No I wouldn't. I'm just like you. I can't live without you and you can't live without me. If I found out you were gone I'd kill myself." Carl says and I shake my head. "You can't same reason why I cant. For Judy." I say and Carl nods. "Yeah." Carl says and Maggie walks out. "Im so glad your okay. Do you remember Hershel taking the bullet put of you?" I ask and Carl shrugged. "Little bit I remember you telling me everything will be okay and feeling the pain then passed out." Carl says and I nod. "Yeah I was trying to keep still and calm." I say and Carl winces in pain. "Whats wrong?" I ask Carl and e points to his wound. "The medications wearing off I think." Carl says and I nod. "Ill be right back." I say and walk out of the cell. "Hershel I need Carl's pills" I say and Hershel gives them to me. I walk back to the cell and grab a bottle of water that was on the floor for when he woke up. I walk over to Carl and sit on the bed. "Here you go baby." I say and put two pulls in his hand and hand him the bottle of water. He puts the pills in his mouth and swallows some water with it. He hands me the water bottle and I put it on the floor. "It should work soon for now get some sleep." I say an kiss Carl's for head. I stand up and Carl grabs my hand. "Please don't leave me." Carl says and I turn around and look at him. "Okay." I say and lift Carl's head up then sit down. I put Carl's head in my lap and he grabs my hand then intertwines are fingers. Carl pulls our hands up to his face and kisses my hand. I play with his hair for a little while and he slowly falls asleep.I put my forehead on his and kiss the top of his head. "I love you so much." I whisper and shut my eyes.

Hey guys! How many of you thought Carl was dead? Well he isn't Yay!Okay guys I hope you liked it! Please vote and comment and I will try an update as soon as possible.