Okay, new game plan. I decided how to advance with all of my emotions or lack thereof.
I'm just gonna turn myself straight.
Simple as pie.
Although,
It isn't simple as it sounds.
I've had this idea in mind for a short while now, that everything would just fall into place a lot more if I obliterated my attraction to women. This is of course is a bit of a challenge.
Hell. Who am I kidding. It's a huge flipping challenge.
I now have to reboot my reflex of checking out girls to checking out guys. How absolutely freaking inconvenient.
I don't really know why I'm doing this. Maybe it's because my entire family, extended family, and town is super religious and I'm trying not to start a rift? Maybe it's because I'm so sure that my gender won't find me attractive that I'm hoping the other one will? Maybe it's because I feel like a freak? Maybe I've just been secretly straight this whole time?!
Crap. I hate all of this. No wonder I've proclaimed myself aromantic, asexual, and straight.
Maybe at this point it's become a reality.
(*Casually feels absolute terror from all of this*)
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Am I Transgender or Lesbian
Non-FictionI guess this is less of a story and more of a journal. I'm going nuts in my head with my sexuality and aspects of my life and past, so I may as well get it out on the screen.
