Fight

P. Fourteen

LUNA
Slowly I wake up in the dark. No clue about the time. But probably not much later than 8 AM. Rested but still sleepy I sit up in bed. I open my curtains slightly so I can wake up a little more. I sleep in the smallest bedroom of my apartment. The bigger room with a small balcony I use as "office". There is space for someone to sleep, my desk is there and storage for all the mess I own. I have a walk in closet next to my bathroom, something I've always wanted. Not that's is that spectacular. The last two days were amazing. I was dead at the end of both days. When I grab my phone I see it's already nine. I'm not gonna run today. I need to do some grocery's for the date tonight. I'm gonna cook. I have to say I'm not the best in cooking but there are things I can make.

It's already getting buzzy on the street of Monte Carlo. Practice is in two days. With plastic bags in each hand I'm walking back to my house. I have everything I need for the pizza. And I bought LEGO for myself. I'm such a child. But I think it's fun to do. This isn't my first LEGO I bought this year. I have a pile full of games and LEGO in my messy closet. I really should donate stuff, games I don't play anymore, LEGO I build one time and tarred down the day after. That's what I'm gonna do after this weekend. Giving stuff away. For people that need it. My intercom buzzes. 'A package for miss Power.' A post man says. I don't remember ordering something. 'You can place it underneath the mailboxes, thank you.' I open the door for him and continue unpacking my groceries. The box waiting for me downstairs makes me curious. I need to know. I throw everything in the fridge that belongs there and than run down the stairs. A big brown cardboard box placed underneath the mailboxes. That's all for me? Amazing! When I pick the box up it's not that heavy, but it has some weight. I'm gonna be not sportive and take the elevator. I place it down on the ground, grab a knife and open up the box. Ivy park. No way! I start smiling like crazy. I read the card. Dear Luna, who run the world? Girls! This is for you, hope you enjoy it! Can't wait to see some photos of you wearing it, I bet you'll look stunning. Like you always do. Continue doing what you're doing. Hope to see you on the podium one day. Girl Power ;) Love Beyoncé and Ivy Park. I'm dying inside. I haven't even looked inside yet. But the fact queen Bey knows I exist, maybe not, is already amazing. I'm just gonna believe one of my queens knows I exist and I don't care what other people say. I search for my phone to write a thank you on Instagram, but of course I lost my phone. I lift the bag of the groceries, nope. I feel my pockets. Wow. I start filming. Happy girl right here. Thanks Beyonce and Ivy park. I both tag them before posting it in my story. Now let's see what's in it. I see yellow and I'm already in love. I place them all laid out on the floor. So many thing. Sports bras, slippers, crop tops, sweaters, shorts, bodysuit. In all types of colors. I'm in love with the yellow crop top, with open back. The annoying thing is I need to wear a Toro Rosso shirt on the weekends. But I can wear the shorts and sports bra. Oh I'm so happy.

'Hey Dan,' I say breaking the silence. We're watching some TV. I'm gonna start making diner soon. My heart starts beating like crazy. But I need to tell him this. He needs to know. Now. But I'm so terrified. Even though I think he'll react sweet on it. Daniel moves his face from the TV, so he's looking at me. I play with the corner of one of my soft pillows, that I'm having in front of my stomach. I swallow before speaking, 'well, um. I need to tell you something.' Daniel waits patiently for me to continue. Making me even more nervous. 'When you asked if I was still a virgin, I wasn't speaking the truth. Well I told you the truth, I'm not a virgin anymore, but I didn't told you everything.' Why is this so hard? Daniel places his hand on my knee, letting it rest there. He probably sees I am struggling. I take a deep breath. 'When I was 21 I went on holiday with my friends, one day we went out.. and that night two men rapped me.' I can't look at him when I tell him. Tears stinging in my eyes. I haven't told many people. My close family, really close friends and I've talked to a therapist. 'I don't know wh-,' he doesn't finish, but I know he doesn't know what to say. 'I haven't had sex since. My look at man changed that night, and I know that not all men are like that.' Look at sweet Charles and Shawn Mendes, two of the sweetest man ever. I don't know Shawn personally but he looks like such a sweet man. 'It's getting easier by day trusting man I don't know. But I don't want it to change us. It happened in the past and I'm trying to continue on my life. But I just wanted you to know.' I wipe away the small tear that left my eye. Daniel pulls me into a hug. 'I'm sorry you had to go through that. I really wasn't expecting that, you're always so happy.' Softly I smile into his arms. Says who. 'I'm not the only one who knows right?' I shake my head. 'My family knows, close friends. Not many other people.' I don't know if I want other people to know. I understand that I'm an influencer now and I can support other man and woman who've been through the same, but it's still pretty fresh to me and I don't always know the right thing to do. 'Charles knows?' Charles. Once again I shake my head. 'He doesn't know.' I've never told him. I don't know why. I don't think I ever felt the need to tell him some how. Maybe I need to tell him. Now I do wanna tell him. 'Thank you for telling. I promise you I'll always listen to you.' Smiling I look up at him. As I place my hand on his cheek, he leans in for a kiss.

'Everything alright there?' I hear from the living room. 'Yeah almost done.' Just some cheese there and it's ready to go in the oven. Swinging my hips I move around in my small kitchen. I throw the pizza in the oven and walk back to my living room. 'You spilled some.' I look down at my blouse. No! Tomato sauce are you serious? I'm never gonna get it out. Sighing I walk back to the kitchen, cleaning it as good as I can. 'I'm so clumsy.' I sit down in a stool, opposite of Daniel. I bring my glass to my mouth. Before it's there I already know I'm gonna spill. The water rushes down. He laughs. I clean the water off my face with my hand. Also moving over my blouse. Luckily it's only water and not wine or anything than I really could've thrown away this thing. I think I already can though. If you mess red whine all over clothes, can you take it out with white wine, or is that just on a rug?