Fight

P. Twenty six

LUNA
'I'm gonna go.' Confused I look up from my phone. What is she talking about?
'What do you mean?'
'I'm gonna go to dad. And you're going to hang out with Daniel, you're already have little time with each other I don't wanna take it away.' I sit up straight.
'But I missed you.' She takes my hands into hers. I sound like a little baby.
'I missed you too.' I get what she means though. I miss Daniel too, but her too! It's so hard.
'Are you coming to my next race?' She nods.
'Of course. And I'm gonna be on time.' I smile.
'Ugh. I don't want you to go!' I brag, wrapping my arms around her.
'I know, but you need time with your man.'

'Before you go I need some advice.' I sit down on the ground against the wall in front of my closet. Lola is gathering her stuff and stealing some of mine too.
'Shoot.'
'Well I still need to tell Charlie what happened. But I don't know how, I'm scared he's gonna get mad or be disappointed in me because I've never told him.' She turns to me and stops with the clothes.
'Why would he get mad?' She sits down next to me.
'Because we've been friends for ages and I've never told him.' She takes my hand.
'That's bullshit Guusje and you know it too. You're just scared to tell him, he'll understand. It's terrifying, I'm not gonna tell it for you because I know that's on your mind.' That's true. If she does it, it will be way easier.
'This is something you need to tell your best friend. It's your story. He won't get mad or be disappointed in you, he loves you. He'll understand.' I look down. She is speaking the truth. It's my story not hers. And this is something I need to tell him.
'But when do I tell him? I don't know the right time to tell him.' I look back at her.
'When you're comfortable, maybe that is over diner, lunch, I don't know; that's up too you. It's not like you need to tell him today, just tell him in person before you tell the world.' I nod.
'Thank you.' I hug her tight.
'Always little sis.' Ugh.

Am I seeing it right? Does he have an earring whole? 'You had an earring?' Daniel looks up from his phone, looking at me.
'Yeah.' Smirking I stand up and enter my bedroom. 'What are you doing?' I hear him ask. But I ignore him. What is a fun earring? I search through my jewelry box. This thing smells, jeez. With a medium hoop and a stud I walk to my kitchen cleaning the earrings. When they are both clean I walk back to my livingroom. 'What is that?' He looks questioning.
'Nothing.' Daniel moves away when I sit down.
'No Luna we aren't going to pierce my ear again!' He holds my wrists.
'We are.' He shakes his head. I sit down on his lap.
'Luna please don't do this to me.' I hold his left earlobe between my fingers.
'Don't be a pussy. I have piercings too.' Five to be exact. I have and industrial on my left side, a helix and orbital on the left and the earlobe ones.
'Voluntarily.' I look him into his eyes.
'You also took that one voluntarily, I'm just pushing it through again. No worries mate,' the last thing I try my best impression of Daniel. He doesn't back out anymore and let me do my thing. Yay! He loves me. I push the stud through. As I do it I see Daniels face flinch. Pussy. It was still a whole and didn't even had to push hard.
'You didn't asked me if I was ready.' I smile, little kid.
'I know you're born ready,' I use his own words. I replace the stud for the hoop. I get off his lap, looking at him. 'You look beautiful.' I nod, proud of what I did.
'I hate it.' He feels it. Daniel take his phone. He starts smiling. 'I still don't like it,' he tries to say it as serious as possible, but he's still smiling.
'You've looked worse.' Hurt he looks at me.
'When?' He's serious?
'Pff, don't get me started. You've made some big wardrobe mistakes.' He grabs my hand and pulls me closer, making me fall on his lap, but I managed to do it a little smooth. My legs on each side of his legs, like I sat when I pushed the earring through.
'You don't like my style?'
'I've never said that. You've made some mistakes, but I like your weird shirts.' I really do. They are funny and they are so Daniel.

'Do you think many people have noticed what's going on between us?' I take a sip of my water. My head is burning from the heat. We went for a run and we're having a brake at a little café. Enjoying the sun.
'I don't know. I don't think so. Know one ever came up to me to asks. I think we're spending a normal amount of time on the race weekends that it looks normal.' I nod. It's not like we're drawling around each other on the weekends.
'Seb did came up to me and asked me what was going on between us, I played it innocent and then he told me you had an eye on me. Guess you need to look at me less.' Smirking I look at him. His facial expressions tell me he isn't fully believing me. 'I swear I'm not making this up, he told me this in Austria.'
'But I can't keep my eyes of you, you're so pretty.' Shyly I smile. 'You wanna go home and play some games?' He proposes. I nod.
'But I'm gonna shower first, cause I stink.' He nods.
'Yeah you do, it's really bad.' I open my mouth, hurt. He chuckles. 'I'm joking.' He gets up from the chair.
'I'm gonna pay.' Before I can say no he's already gone. I enjoy the sun for a second. It's still surprises me how I got here. Here in Monaco but especially in formula 1. Am I that good? I didn't thought I was ready for formula 1 last year even though I wanted it so bad, I wasn't even in f2 how could I be ready for the big cars? But here I am, in Monaco, working my ass off for the next race and with the man I love. Some one pinch me please. Daniel is back.
'You wanna go?' I nod and get up.

'Do you think I'm good?' Daniel turns his head to me.
'Good in?' I pull my shirt over my head.
'Racing.' He looks a bit confused.
'Why are you asking?' I move to my bedroom and sit down.
'Because I don't know. To be honest I don't even know how I got here.' He sits down next to me. Today is such a shit day.
'Guusje.' I smile as he comes a little closer. He makes me look at him, he's fingers on the side of my chin. 'You're the first female back in f1 since 1992. You're not racing here because you suck but because you're good at it. You know only the best drivers race here.' I raise one eyebrow. 'Maybe not all.' We all know who. 'Mercedes has great drivers that don't have a seat, where did you come from? F3, they didn't pick you because they had no one to put in that seat. Maybe a little but they picked you for a reason. Because you're good, because you have potential, power. You're fierce. You're strong G, believe in yourself and bad days happen and that's fine. We all have them. Yeah it's gonna get harder and you're gonna struggle sometimes, but you'll overcome it because you have all these amazing people around you that are willing to help you. And I the experienced expert is there for you when you need me.' I smile. How come he always will make me smile? I love it though. 'Lola texted me I needed to be nice with you today.' I softly smile again.
'Yeah today just isn't the best day of the year.'
'But really Guusje you're the only female racing between the guys, of course your ass is good.'