Summer - Adopted by Daveed Diggs Fanfic

it's ok

Summers POv

My eyes opened slowly but all I could see was blurred images. I took a deep breath and the beeping of machines and soft voices filled my ears. Everything was muffled and I could barely see anything. I looked around the room but couldn't make out anything. All I knew was that I was in the hospital and I was still alive. My throat was dry and I began to panic. What was I thinking?

The beeping became louder leaving an obnoxious ringing in my ear. I blinked rapidly and felt my heart rate increase. Doctors flooded around me and my lungs gasped for breath. I shot up, taking a deep breath and exhaling. Suddenly everything was clear. I saw Daveed there, looking at me in relief. I looked at my arms and my face dropped. Why would I do such a thing? Nothing will ever be the same. Stitches laced through my arm with something wrapped around it. My head began to hurt. Fuck....

I could barely remember anything but all I remember were things I will always remember. I started to sob, I laid my head in my arms and cried. I felt arms wrap around me and I felt significantly better.

"I'm sorry!" I sobbed, digging my nails into the palm of my hands. I was angry, I was sad, I was confused. Why would I do such a thing? How could I be so ignorant?

"It's okay..." Daveed said softly. I shook my head... but didn't say anything. I felt like shit, everything hurt... but still in a way I wanted to die. But I knew... this wasn't an option and I believed I could get better. I think we all did...

I small light of hope sat there in my hands. I relaxed and took a deep breath, the tears beginning to dry on my face.

I was going to be

Okay

-timeskip-

'A few days later, I was allowed to go home. I changed into new clothes and headed out. I am required to take therapy a few times a week and the doctor prescribed medication until they are sure im fine.

I soon had to go back to school. And that wasn't great but not terrible. As soon as I walked through the door all eyes were glued to me. Rumours spread around but no one figured out the real story. I was glad for that....

I went to class and the day was long. Angel left the group of friends she was with before (anyone remember angel?) and started hanging out with me. She was really nice and fun to talk with. I never really made friends since I moved around a lot but it was really nice to have someone to talk to.

Since I was gone a few days I missed a lot. There was a new girl in the school and her name was Billie. She was really cool and she also started hanging out with us. I finally had a little friend group.

Well, thats it for today...'

I closed my journal and smiled. Things were going pretty good. My phone buzzed and I looked at the screen. A notification popped up for the group chat we had.

I started chatting with them for a long period of time. I laughed. I pushed negative emotions aside and I was finally truly happy...

Eventually I was called down for dinner. I skipped down the steps with a smile plastered across my face. I greeted Daveed and he handed some food to me.

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I wrote in my journal everyday now since thats what the therapist required. It did really help me pull out the positivity and push away the negativity. I mostly wrote about good things and that made me realize things were going to be okay.

its ok