letting go

modesty

''Eric,Eric where are you'' a voice called from the living room i sit up on my bed and see that Tyler is still here.

Zayn comes rushing in my room with flowers and a heart shaped box .he looked like he rushed and i don't know why he lives on the same floor as us.

''I'm sorry for what i did okay,i don't know why i cheated and i was stupid i love you OK and your so nice to everyone and i took advantage of you. I'll never do it again babe if you just give me a chance I'm different now'' he said now on his knees in front of me holding on to my hands.

Tyler now is sitting up on my bed and watching the scene before him. Zayn looks from me to him just now realizing Tyler was here. Tyler looks from me to him  as if waiting for my answer

''i know your thinking you shouldn't trust but let me show you let me treat you like the princess you are''he said tears now streaming down his face.

i feel sorry for him and he's right i could see that he changed. when i see the tears streaming down his face i want to just wipe them up and take him back and end his pain that is evident on his face.and that's what i do i bring him up of his knees and i kiss him.zayn picks me up and spins me in a circle.Tyler gets up grabs his jacket  and leaves.

''ill be right back okay'' i say pushing him on the bed and he nods while i walk out towards Tyler.

''whats wrong with you'' i say turning him around.

''nothing i have bitches to fuck'' he says pulling his lip ring into his mouth.

''right when i thought you were decent'' i say shaking my head.

''im not decent never was never will be''he said with a smirk and leaves with slamming door.

i fucking hate that man he gives me chest pains and not the good kind.i walk back to my room with zayn my boyfriend sitting on my bed.he peppered me with questions of how i was.i just nod or add a few comments in between so he thinks I'm listening.he goes on about giving me a mega date to apologies for cheating on me.he brought chocolates too but none were my favorite.huh,you'd think your boyfriend of  2 years would know your favorite chocolate.3 hours later he left and i sat in my new freshly painted room.since Tyler left i have to move everything back to its spot and hang posters.i need this to be a perfect tumblr room i think laughing.

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''i need to buy a dress to go meet up with Zayn's parents this week will you come with me'' i say to Chris as she walks around the apartment looking for her phone.

''why do you need a new dress you have plenty you haven't worn yet'' she says.

''yea but Zayn said that i need to get more appropriate dresses cause his parents believe modesty is important in women,he thinks they're to revealing and stuff'' i say shrugging.

when Zayn came over to tell me he was inviting me to a dinner with his parents i tried on almost everything in my closet that was fancy ; he turned down every single one.i would have argued that this wasn't the middle ages and i could wear clothes that made me feel and look like a woman but he was so happy when i told him i would try to find something better for me to wear.

'' I'm going to be honest with you i never liked Zayn he was always so uptight about every thing ,your basically a pet that he keeps in a cage for his own needs'' she says and i shake my head.

''if your saying that Zayn is possessive hes not,hes a boy and boys do these types of things'' i say.

''well Harry doesn't do that he likes it when i look great and he shows me off not as a trophy but as his girlfriend'' she says her voice getting noticeably louder.

''i see that and I'm happy for you but Zayn is different he is just as scared as us and he has problems and i accept that'' Chris turns around shaking her head.

''stop feeling sorry for everyone you constantly feel a need to put everyone before you but why ? they treat you like shit Eric and all you do is smile and walk away get mad for once god dammit !''she said she was getting really mad.

''I'm sorry i hope i didn't get you too mad'' I say with a weak smile.

''your the older sister your supposed to scream at me put me in my place'' she says throwing her hands in the air.

''im sorry ill just go myself'' i say leaving the house before hearing Chris let out an exhausted sigh.