letting go

jumping off a roof...why not

i walk into the beach house after leaving the groceries at my moms house and also buying some food for us over the weekend and i hear the humming of everyone in the house talking. When i walk into the main room i see all the guys and Chris sitting down and huddled around the table.

''whats going on'' i and they all look up to me.

''well I'm trying to make a plan for me to jump of the roof into the pool but they wont let me'' Harry says pouting.

it takes a second for me to let what harry said sink in.

''its the most irresponsible thing I've ever heard like seriously would you ever do that ?'' Liam asks.

''I'm down it'll be fun that was on my bucket list anyway'' i say smiling.

i look around the room to see Tyler looking at me raising an eyebrow i shrug.

'' i have helmets because it needs to be somewhat safe so yea lets go.''

that is how i ended up on a roof with harry and Chris recording me about to jump off a roof. most of us are adults and look how wonderful we are taking this responsibility.

''OK on three we run OK OK one two three!'' harry says as we start running and splash into the pool.

that was probably the coolest thing I've ever done.

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''I'm hungry '' niall groans when i walk into the kitchen .

''what do you want Blondie'' i say opening the refrigerator.

''i once saw this pizza that the dough was french fries and the rest was like a regular pizza can you make that''' he says eyes wide.

''no but that sounds pretty amazing how about cookies with fried Oreo inside'' i say and he smiles .

''I'm SO full right now i cant breath'' Chris groans as shes sprawled out on the floor next to niall.

''i want to marry you now because your snacks are so good is that wrong i don't think that's wrong'' niall says.

'' it is wrong your basically marrying me for my food,technically your not even marrying me just my food'' i say looking up from my book.

''i guess..... I'm still hungry though sooo'' he says .

''I'm tired I'm going to sleep'' i say leaving the room with my phone.

i walk into room to see Tyler standing outside my door.I'm becoming used to Tyler lingering outside my doors.

''whats that your reading on your phone there''tyler says slightly slurred.

''some book called after it hasn't really come out yet so yeah'' i say shrugging and squirming under his stare.

i know that we kissed it was a mistake its just me and my feelings.i think about this every time i see him and its been annoying the heck out of me.i don't want to be one of those girls that go bad after a break up .I'm not going to.

''i bet you its some sappy love story that ends with them living happily ever after'' he says rolling his eyes.

''it is not some sappy love story i don't think of this book as love story at all its more of a transformation story'' i say defending the book.

''look its OK i get your the goody two shoes girl that loves to read stories about happily ever afters dreaming that will come true'' he scoffs.

''you don't even know me I'm am not some hopeless romantic that believes in fairy tales and happy endings because they are no happy endings'' i say slightly screaming.

''well what a surprise '' he says.

''what is your problem why are you annoying me so much cant you find some tramp and fuck her rather than be here and piss me off'' i say shocked at how mean i sounded.

''look at that the good girl who curses and doesn't believe in love and happy endings , that just doesn't add up'' he said walking towards me.

''well here i am so it does add up OK just please leave me alone'' i say getting a headache.

he brings his arm up to my waist.

''i see right through this fake shit your putting up right now your mad but your holding back'' he says whispering in my ear.

''i just cursed you out what do you want me to do start throwing tables I'm sorry but I'm not reckless'' i say trying to sound confident.

''that's bullshit you see the last time you said you don't get mad you just did.''he says.

''what exactly are you trying to do are you on some drunken mission to get me mad'' i say pushing away from him.

''well yes '' he says leaving the room.

just like that hes gone.just like that I'm back to my calm normal self,except for the goosebumps that stay on my body even after he leaves.