letting go

flashback

i sat on the couch in the living room as my mom made food. I was scared i didn't know if my dad would be angry when he came home today. He usually is always coming home angry and reeking of alcohol hitting everything that came in his way,by everything i mean my other. He always hits her repeatedly but she never cries she never screams she just closes her eyes and doesn't say a thing. I looked over to her and she smiled and continued cooking.

i heard his foot steps as he walked up the shaky steps to our house. He came into the room slamming the door behind him and i flinched .he sat at the kitchen table and took a bottle out from his briefcase and tipped it into his mouth. My mom stood in front of him waiting,watching.

''Where's my food'' he said in a low rumbling voice.

''its not done yet honey it will be in a few minutes'' my mom says with the quiet smile that is always on her face.

''well next time have my fucking food ready before i get home'' he says getting up and dropping the chair with it.

''whats the point in having a wife if she cant do anything right''he says throwing her against the sink.

i look as my mom falls to the ground not saying anything i turn my head and focus on the pattern in the couch. I end up turning back around to see my father kicking my mom repeatedly not enough to break anything but enough so that it will leave a mark.that's how he is always leaving a mark. I walk over to where my father is standing pull up a chair and grab the bottle he was drinking from i stand up on the chair and bang the bottle against his head.

it shatters and falls to the ground but my father doesn't fall. In the movies this would be the part where my father falls to the ground and i escape with my mother but that doesn't happen. He turns around and pulls me off the chair by my hair and drops me to the kitchen floor. He kicks me the same way he did to my mother and i look her right in the eye as my face is pressed against the cold tile floor.

''there will be none of this superhero shit around here,are you going to do the same for your daughter''. he says as he drags me up again by my hair and throws me into the kitchen wall next to my mother.

i look at my mother waiting for her to get up and bring me with her but she doesn't. She closes her eyes and looks away.I lost my mother the lady who i loved the one i trusted and looked up to, was gone with that simple movement. My father starts to walk away and i get up grabbing the pan my mother was cooking with and threw it at his back. He fell and i got up and tried to run up the stairs. He grabbed unto my leg and dug into it with a shard of glass that fell to the ground. I felt the glass tearing into my skin but i kept running until i got into my room.

I'm leaving today and nothing could stop me now. I didn't pack much i just put my sneakers on three pairs of sweats in my book bag and deodorant, a pack of gum and a sweater. i knew my dad would be leaving soon with my mother for a dinner at his bosses house. I waited until i hear the car engine then i went down stairs.i walked out to the porch and ran.i didn't know where i was going or how i was going to get there but i kept running.the pain erupting from my injured foot didn't stop me.i ran until the streetlights blurred from all the tears that brimmed my vision.

i woke up on piles of trash not knowing how i got here with two seemingly Asian people around me. They were bickering looking and pointing at me.finally one grabbed me by my arm and brought me into a shop the other started dialing on her phone and the police were there in no time.

''hi sweetie whats your name ?'' A women with a heavy Brooklyn accent said looking at me.

''my name is ...um....Erika-my name is Erika''i said not sure why i was stuttering.

''Erika that's a beautiful name for a beautiful girl now tell me how you ended up in a pile of trash behind a thrift shop'' she said.

''i-i don't know'' i didn't know how to explain that my father was a monster that tried to kill me without sounding crazy.

''well we are just going to dig around to find your parents and we will get you home'' she says pulling a lollipop out of her blue uniform pocket.

i sat there for an hour and saw the lady typing on her computer eyebrows scrunched together as she called the other people over who looked at the computer screen and shook there heads and looked over to me.she got up to kneel in front of me.

''honey when did you leave you leave your house'' she says.

''last night'' i say answering the question.

''well um,your parents are-well your mom and dad are.... they re dead''she says apologetically.''they died this morning''.

at this moment i should be torn apart i think.i should be balling my eyes out and asking why this would happen to my parents but im not.im numb.i dont feel anything torwards the people who gave birth to me.i don't feel anything towards the monsters anymore they never existed.

the nice police lady asked me if i wanted to go to there funeral. they somehow already had money saved for a situation like this since we had no other family and the closest thing they would get to a proper burial was a beautiful wooden box thrown six feet under carelessly. i asked how they died not for any sense of closure not that i cared if they died a slow painful death.she says how my father was drinking and driving according to the autopsy or whatever fancy word she used to describe my father's drinking problem. it also showed that they  got into a fight when they turned left off the road and died on impact.i was now an orphan thrown into the system till i was eighteen.

(AN: guys i have like thousands of test this week and i wanted this to be a very long detailed flashback dream thing but you see i need a 90 average in most of my first quarter classes to make sure i get into a good high school and stuff so i want to make this a two part thing. its actually pretty beneficial to know this whole part because its the night where Eric turns into an orphan and meets her mother so like yea but please vote comment and share so i can keep writing more chapters and to know that you guys actually like this story- eric btw