Apex- AU HS FANFIC

Chapter 45

Harry's POV*

"To Harry. The boy whose first girlfriend turned him into an honest lad." Louis slurred, throwing an arm over my shoulder. I laughed and we all raised a beer to the toast. By we I meant Louis, Liam, Niall, Zayn, Michael, Sebastian and Anthony.

 We were all way past drunk and I felt my heart hurt. Something was wrong. 

"Hey, something's wrong. Something's really wrong." I said as I felt my heart hurt even more. Terror. I sobered up quickly at the feeling, trying to figure out where my phone was. 

"What?" Sebastian asked with a laugh, drinking the rest of his beer. 

"Something is wrong with Leslie. I can feel it. I gotta go. Let's go." I dialed her number, feeling the need to go to her house. The boys gave me a questioning look but obeyed, getting into my car, cramming themselves in. Those who didn't fit were with Eleanor, who was sober, as she drove behind me

 "Hi you've reached Leslie, you know what to do." A giggle at the end of her voicemail. 

"Fuck! Everyone call her." The drunks moaned, dialing her. I got to her house and my heart sank, police cars, police tape and when I walked in the scene that made my heart break. 

"What the fuck happened? Where is she?" I ran in past the cops who told me to stop. Alice and Rick were crying on the couch. 

"I don't know! I got home and everything was a mess! Everything in her room was torn apart. She was smart. She made it known there was a struggle. She isn't here, Harry. I'm so sorry." Alice sobbed and my heart shattered as I fell to my knees. 

Seconds later her arms were around me. I was a mess. My heart was shattered. 

"Where the fuck is she?" I sobbed out, feeling myself in a group hug from all my friends. I wanted my girlfriend. I needed her. 

"Alice, she's still alive. Please tell me she's alive?" I sobbed harder when I saw the blood on the stairs and on the end in a pool. 

"They don't know. There's too much blood, Harry. They don't know. She fell down the stairs fighting and by the blood, she cut herself. It's not head fracture because there's no brain tissue on scene. It's like her side or something because there's skin. No hair." Alice tried to calm me down with big words but it just made my heart shatter. 

Months passed. Not a word about her. I grew angrier. I grew vengeful. I didn't even go to uni. I refused to go without my baby. I refused. 

"Alice, please. She's alive. I know she is. I can feel her alive!" I said to Alice as she sat on the couch with Joshua, sulking. It was her birthday today. 19. She would've been 19. We buried an empty casket on her birthday today and I've never felt so much pain in my entire life. 

"Harry Just stop! She's gone! Leslie is fucking gone! She's dead! She hasn't been here in months. She's gone. Get over it! You're making it worse on us! We lost her too, Harry. We're trying to move past it but you're so stuck in the goddamn past! You're not the only one who lost her!" Josh yelled at me and I grew angry. 

"I fucking lost the love of my goddamn life! She's alive because my heart is still beating! If she was dead I would be too!" I yelled equally as loud, my sobs came back 12 times over.

 "God, if you would understand it would be easier to admit that you're the reason we can't get over it. Every goddamn day for the past 6 months you've been over here reminding us of what we lost. Do you have any idea the way it feels to see you and think of my sister? Do you?" 

"I'm trying to find her. I miss her. I want her to come home to me." Josh gave me nothing but a pity stare. 

"Harry, mate, she's not coming home. She's with the angels." Josh sobbed and I looked at Alice who shook her head. 

"She's dead, Harry." 

"If you truly believe that, you're wrong. She's not dead." I shook my head, leaving. I need to leave. I need to get out. I needed to get out of this goddamn town. I fucking couldn't concentrate. 

Where the fuck is she? Leslie? Baby, are you still there?

"Louis. We need to leave." I walked into Louis house to see him with the guys. 

"What? Where?" 

"I don't know. I need to leave. Now. I need to make money. I need to start moving shit. I need it. I need to keep myself occupied or I'm going to drive myself insane waiting for her man." I sobbed and he gave me pity looks with the guys and their girlfriends. 

"Harry, mate, she's gone. She's dead. I'm sorry." Louis gave me a sorry look as I pressed my lips together and nodded slowly. 

"She's not. I'm alive. It counts. I need to leave, I need to wait for her. Please." 

"If you want fast money Harry, we can go to Miami. I hear it's fast money out there for cocaine. It's a steady 4k a month income." 

"No, we need to build it from here. I want to be here when she comes home. I need product here. We'll open a new market and I want to be here for her when she comes home." I shook my head and sniffled as I looked at my friends. 

"Harry, she's not coming home." Eleanor tried and I lost it. 

"She has to! I'm here! She wouldn't fucking leave me! She wouldn't fucking dare leave me alone!" I yelled at her and she gave me a sorry look before breaking into tears and I shook my head being hugged by her. 

"Ele, she has to. She has to come home to me." I sobbed pathetically as she held onto me when I collapsed onto the floor and hugged her. 

"Harry, she's gone. She isn't coming back."