46 days
Luke wasn't in school today he went to the doctors
Just for a check up
I never get check ups
I guess my mum doesn't care enough
Liz insisted I didn't go even though I wanted to
But I can't miss school again
But I have to face it again
On my own
Without Luke
Without my shield
Speak of the devil
I look down at my phone and saw a picture of Luke looking down at the guitar as he was playing it flash up
'Luke 💗'
The caller I.D informed me
I swiped and answered
"Hey"
"Hi sweetie" he lisps purposefully, causing me to chuckle
"What's up?"
"Well I'm in the waiting room with my mum... waiting"
He is so awkward and cute over the phone
"Sounds better than here" I rolled my eyes as some boys were throwing wet paper towels at girls that came out of the loos
"Why? Are you okay? I swear to god if Isaac has done anything to hurt you then I will walk out of here right now and-"
"Luke!"
He was hot when he was angry
"I'm fine" and for once I meant it
"Okay just don't let him get to you it's just one day without me baby you can do it"
I smiled
"Thanks"
I knew he couldn't leave the waiting room because he has been waiting for an appointment all week so I decided to play a trick on him
Just to annoy him
Mwa hahaha
"Mmmm damn! Mr. York is looking hot today" I mumbled only just loud enough for the phone to pick it up
"I'm sorry what?!" Luke asked down the phone
I came away from the phone a bit so it seemed like I thought I had hung up
"Hiya mr. York" I giggled
"Courtney?" I heard Luke yell down the phone "did you just fucking giggle?"
"Oh my gosh! You are so funny!" I giggled again
"Courtney I'm still here! Tell York, the fucker, that he shouldn't be hitting on students especially my girl"
"Luke? Are you still there?" I mocked surprise
"Yeah and I'm coming to get you. Fuck the doctors it can wait. You're mine"
I laughed so hard down the phone
"What did York tell another joke that was 'so funny' ?"
I couldn't stop laughing tears were pricking the corners of my eyes
"Luke"
"What?!" He snapped
"Luke get back here now!" I heard Liz shout in the background
"A mr. York doesn't work at our school"
"What?" His voice a bit smaller now signalling he had gone back into the waiting room
"I was messing with you. I didn't think you'd just leave after waiting a week for this appointment"
"Well when you think that you're going to lose the best thing that has ever happened to you, you tend to do something about it"
"I'm the best thing that's ever happened to you?" My voice extremely quiet now
"Well yeah my life's pretty shit apart from you" he mumbled
"If you were here I would kiss you so much right now. Fuck PDA"
"See now I want to leave again"
I laughed at his comment
"Seriously though don't go leaving me" he practically whispered
"Never"
He groaned "finally. I'm going in now I'll talk to you later, you coming to mine right?"
"Yeah. Have fun"
"Bye"
I hung up and realised I didn't say 'I love you'
So I texted him the small phrase that can change the entire day
•••••
45.5 days
I had just finished my lunch when I was walking back to class and Isaac slung his arm around my shoulders, walking with me.
"Hey mute"
I clenched my fists
"When'd you last use them vocal chords?"
His lack of knowledge in grammar annoyed me further
"What's wrong mute? Cat got your tongue?"
I'm fed up if this bullshit
I threw my books if the ground shrugged his arm off me and pushed his chest with surprising force with every word
"Don't. Call. Me. MUTE!!!!"
I was screaming by the end of it
"I FUCKING TALK I JUST DONT WASTE MY TIME TALKING TO KNOBS LIKE YOU! WHY? BECAUSE YOU FRUSTRATE ME SO MUCH! YOU GO TO THIS SCHOOL THE SAME AMOUNT AS EVERYONE ELSE BUT YOUR ENGLISH IS THE WORST THING IVE EVER HEARD AND IT MAKES ME WANT TO BASH YOUR HEAD IN AND SEE IF YOU EVEN HAVE A BRAIN HIDING IN THAT THICK HEAD OF YOURS!!!!!"
I opened my eyes to see my knuckles covered in blood.
I look up and see a very dented locker in front of me
The blood was my own
I couldn't hit a person, not even a twat like Isaac because I have been on the other end of that contact and I know how bad it feels.
How it makes you feel
How belittling it is.
I look at Isaac and see his eyes wide mouth open and he is starting to back away from me scared he will be my next victim
Three years of anger towards that bully just erupted out of me and I feel so much better to have that off my chest
I swear my pills are meant to stop mood swings like these? Or was that a side effect?
"I'm sorry" Isaac turns and practically jogs down the corridor
I pick up my books and turn towards the small crowd that my outburst has accumulated
They part like the Red Sea, letting the crazy, depressed, bipolar chick through.
I smile as I realise I did what Luke asked.
'Don't let him get to you'
Well he won't anymore
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"I'm Fine" ☠ l.h
Fanfiction"What's it like?" Luke whispered, playing with her hands as they sat there in silence "Hmm?" She turned her head to see the tall boy next to her "Depression, what's it like?" She thought long and hard about her answer, "It's like drowning but... yo...
