I walk into the school the other day thinking about the talk I had with Cameron yesterday, maybe I did feel like I have got some weight off my shoulder but I still have this really strange feeling and I can't describe it to you because I don't know how to describe it to myself. But when I was talking to him yesterday it didn't feel at ease or to be more specific I regretted telling him and I don't know why because my heart is telling me that I did the right thing, but my brain is not and it makes me feel like I just committed a crime or told my whole life story to someone I don't know but it's just Cameron, my brother, from the same mother and father. I noticed something different at school today, I saw Shawn all alone and not even sitting with the rest of the gang, but he was alone so I had this thought maybe Charlie is just sitting with the other guys but at lunch, I didn't see him either.
"Hey Judy, don't you feel that it's strange for Charlie to not be in school today ?" I asked her.
"Maybe he woke up sick, a family emergency, who knows," she said.
"Yeah maybe but it's just so strange," I said starting to get concerned because I know that Charlie isn't the type of guy who skips school because my whole life he has never skipped a day in school.
"Why do you have the concerned look on your face?" Judy said.
"What ? what do you mean I am not concerned, why would I be ?" I said if she saw that I was starting to get concerned she will suspect that I may be catching feelings for him or that something is going on and if she asked me I won't lie to her she is my bestfriend and I will tell her everything starting from that I am falling for him. But before Judy could ask me anything it hit me like a train, what if Cameron didn't listen to me and did something to him or what if he went to his house in the middle of the night and poisoned his breakfast and he got food poisoned, I think that the food poisoning is a little too far because my brother isn't a murderer apparently or maybe he is. GODDAMN IT, why did I tell him I am so stupid.
"I know you are hiding something from me, Just spit it out !!" she said.
"Okay I will tell you but please don't get mad at me, long short story, Charlie apologized and I told him that I can't accept his apology because he can't apologize to me anytime he wants and bully me anytime he wants and I also told him that I will never accept his apology because I want to see the change in him and because apparently, I will spend the rest of my life with him so I need to know that I am safe with him because I can't trust him but if he changed then maybe I can start trusting him and also told him that I want to feel safe when I am around him not run the other side of the hallway. So after I told him that and left him standing there I felt kinda guilty and I had this slight thought that maybe I could be falling for him but I denied it and just shrugged it off, then at night when I was doing my homework there was a tap at my window and it was Charlie he was apologizing again but I told him that I want to see him change so he went on like" fine you want to see the change you will see change." So after that, I knew for sure that I was starting to fall for him, and at that time I needed someone to talk to so I went to Cameron and told him everything and he got all angry like why I have never told him anything like that and blah blah blah, but I wanted him to promise me that he won't hurt him and he promised but here we are, Charlie, is not at school and all I am thinking about right now is what if Cameron hurt him?" I said all in one breath.
"Wait what you are falling for him, are you out of your stupid mind?" she said confused and ladies and gents this is what you get after telling your bestie about something important.
"That is all you're thinking about right now, I am telling you what if he hurt him?" I said.
"Look as much as I am mad at you for not telling me all of this especially if you are falling for him, but all I can tell you right now is go home and ask your brother." She said and I did what she told me to do.
*Skip the rest of school day and the ride back home*
"So Charlie didn't come to school today," I said as I walked into his room.
"So that is a good thing right, I mean you hate him so why do you care anyway." He said.
"No, I don't hate him, if you recall yesterday's talk you would've remembered me saying the words I love him," I said,
"Yeah whatever love him, hate him, doesn't matter what matters is he didn't go to school and if you notice that lots of people skip school because they are sick maybe?" he said like he was suggesting something.
"Maybe it's normal for you but not for me, Charlie has never skipped school Cameron and I am assuming that last night's promise was nothing to you," I said losing patience.
"Are trying to accuse me of something I didn't do, you think I would hurt him and why are you defending him all of the sudden wasn't he the bad boy in your life," he said angrily now.
"I am not buying that bullshit and I know that you hurt him so you better start spilling all of it out Cameron because I am starting to lose my patience here," I said.
"So what lose patience, I DON'T CARE," he said and now he was pissing me off.
"CAMERON WHAT IN SEVEN HELLS DID YOU DO?" I lost it at this point, not only did he break my promise but he beat the living shit out of him, oh my god, what if his mother asks me what happened, what the hell will I say.
"I was having revenge for my little sister, it was just a few punches and some kicks in the stomach, I hope nothing major though." He said chuckling and now I lost it ...like really lost it.
"WHAT ARE YOU LAUGHING AT, NOTHING MAJOR YOU THINK THAT THIS IS FUNNY, WHAT IF HE IS IN THE HOSPITAL NOW? YOU NEED TO KNOW THAT I AM GOING TO HAVE TO SPEND THE REST O ME LIFE WITH HIM SO YOU NEED TO MAKE AMENDS WITH HIM. AND GET OVER YOURSELF, I TOLD YOU NOT TO HURT HIM AND YOU DID THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF IT, GOD CAMERON I HATE YOU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW, YOU HAVE NO HEART, I DIDN'T TELL YOU GO HURT HIM, WHAT IF HIS MUM ASKED ME WHAT HAPPENED TO HIM AM I SUPPOSED TO TELL HER MY GODDAMN STUPID BROTHER HURT HIM?" I was shouting right now, good thing my parents aren't home yet.
"I was and still protecting you, he hurt you that it made bruises over your whole body, what are you? Out of your mind?" he said still calm.
"NO SAY THAT TO YOURSELF, YOU HAVE NO HEART CAMERON AND I REGRET TELLING YOU, GOD WHY AM I EVEN STILL STANDING HERE WITH YOU, YOU KNOW WHAT I WILL LEAVE YOU TO GO FOR YOUR NEXT VICTIM, "I said
"Is that what you think of me ?" he asked kinda hurt, but I couldn't care less, he hurt me first.
"It is what I think of you" and now I shouldn't have said it because he just slapped me like so hard, it hurts like hell though.
"Oh my god El I am so sorry, I di-"I cut him off by saying
"Save it for yourself Cameron, and if slapping me is what you meant by protecting me then good job," I said and left the room.
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So here you go everybody, chapter 7.
I am going to try to publish more often because I am going back to school in a week or more I think so here you go. Edited you guys!
Lots of love.
Eviexxx
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