Repercussions

Part Twelve: Back Home

Margo's POV

I can't help but feel it was my fault. Death and sorrow has followed me since my mom died. I shouldn't have come here and gotten attached to the dream I chased after. This was on such a greater scale though, I wasn't the only one torn from people they love. Now my whole body is numb from the loss. It's all in my head but I feel it everywhere. Pepper tries to tell me there's a chance they are coming back from this but I refuse to get my hopes up. If you get your hopes up it hurts more.

A week, seven days, one hundred and sixty eight hours since we've heard or seen my dad and Peter. I should've told my dad I loved him and it haunts me. I've been here nearly five months and still never told him those three words. I can't help but cling to hope he despite me never saying it out loud that he knew. I've shut down and I think it hurts Pepper that I will hardly talk to her, but it's hard. My natural reaction is to shut down and once I've shut down it's hard to get me open again.

I woke up every morning checking my phone, but one of the few people I want to talk to don't show up in my notifications. It's lots of text from Ned and/or MJ, I can't imagine how they feel. They new Peter longer and probably deeper than I did. I haven't shown up to school because I'm to scared to face them. My bad karma took away they're friend. I look at the picture of Peter on night stand and overtime I tear up. He has so much more to offer this world, he should be here.

It's now Friday which marks exactly a week since then. I drag myself out of bed and head downstairs where I see Peppers made breakfast.

"Morning" I say as I walk down the stairs. Pepper looks up from the stove and smiles when she sees me.

"Nice to see you up and moving" She says like this is the first time I've been up. Really this is the first time I've willingly been in the same room as her.

"I figured I have to eventually have to live life again, so thats what I'm doing" I say sitting on the bar stools that sit at the edge of the kitchen.

"Well thats a start" Pepper says handing me a plate.

"Look I'm sorry I've been basically avoiding you. It's just kind of my natural reaction. I promise I'll be more involved from now on" I say looking up at her.

"You don't have to be sorry, I deal with the same thing with your dad" Pepper says to me, she places her hand on mine and rubs her thumb on my hand. "Now how about we eat" She says moving to the table. I smile and go sit at the table with her. It feels empty without dad but I try not to let myself think about it to much.

We were eating and about half way through breakfast we were interrupted by the alarm system saying someone was out front. Pepper and I both look each other confused as to who's out front. Pepper stands up to check and I follow behind. When she opens the door Pepper's hands go over her mouth out of pure shock. Pepper runs and hugs him but I'm frozen where I stand. This isn't possible, he was gone, or he was supposed to be.

"Oh thank god" My dad says when he see's both of us. My dad is alive and standing in front of me.

"N-No you were supposed to be dead. I-I saw the news" I say confused and shocked. I feel my eyes welling up with tears. This time they are tears of relief and happiness.

"How many times have I told you not to listen to the news" Dad says looking over at me. I laugh and run up to him hugging him tighter than ever before. He sinks into the hug and you can feel everything is less tense. For a moment everything is right again.

"I love you dad and I cannot imagine loosing you again" I finally say to him.

"I love you too kid and I will do everything in my power not to leave either of you again" Dad says to Pepper and I. Dad walks over to Pepper again and kisses her.

"I hate to break the moment but I know Peter was with you and I hadn't heard from him" I say looking over at my dad. He looks at me and I can see him fighting back tears. It's at that moment I know Peter's not coming back, my dad made it back but he lost Peter.

"I-I'm sorry kid, but we didn't win this fight. We lost and the consequence hurt a lot of people" He says and I'll never get those words out of my head. I got my father back, but Peter, Peters really gone.

"N-N-No, he can't be gone. It-It's just not possible" I say shaking my head. I turn around and can feel a hand on my shoulder. I turn around and my dads standing behind me.

"P-Please tell me it isn't true, tell me he's coming back" I say weakly on the verge heavy tears.

"I will do everything I can to figure out a way to bring him back" He says to me. I'm shaking a lot and so at this point so I fall to my knees and tears escape my eyes.

Tony's POV

I've dealt with a lot in my life, but nothing compares to loosing Peter on titan. His last words always replaying in the back of my head. I can still feel him clinging onto me. The others disintegrated faster but his body took longer because his body kept fighting it, but ultimately lost. I was responsible for that kid and now he's gone. He used his last words to tell me he's sorry, but for what? He never did anything wrong. This kid didn't have a wrong bone in his body.

Trying to get home was hard. I lost Peter and I didn't know how the snap affected every back home. I didn't know if I was going to get home and no one would be there waiting for me. It was mind numbing fight. Everything hurt and I didn't know how we could come back from this one. I do know that coming home and seeing Pepper and Margo took away the pain for a minute. For a bit I got to forget what I had lost, but when Margo asked about Peter it all game back. The feeling of him holding onto me and the pain and fear in his voice before he disappeared.

"I will do everything I can to figure out a way to bring him back" I promise Margo but also myself. I will get him back. When Margo falls to her knees crying I get down and pull her into my chest. tight. I look up over at Pepper who looks over with a look full of sympathy.

Eventually we get up from the grass and Margo asks to go up to her room so we let her have a moment to herself. I just sit on the couch and rest my elbows on my knees and put my head in my hands. Pepper just sits next to me rubs her hands up and down my back.

"It was awful Pepper, not just the end but the whole fight. There was one point where I just kept thinking this is it, this is where it all ends" I say shaking my head and looking over at her.

"And when it didn't end I didn't know what to expect. Then next thing I know people are turning into literal dust right in front of me" I say not only to Pepper but also to myself so I can wrap my head around it. "I didn't know what was going on here and I didn't know if both of you were okay" I say looking over at her.

"Peter shouldn't have been there and now he's gone and I somehow have to explain to May that he's not coming back. I can still hear his voice and feel him clinging me to help but I couldn't do anything" I say and its louder than I meant it. There's just lots of anger and guilt built up inside me.

"Hey-hey-hey, everything will be okay" Pepper says holding my arm and rubbing my back still. I sigh and reach over and hug her and say "God I hope your right".