lost and found // calum hood

15 | Elizabeth

I was so excited to meet Calum again and see the others that I forgot about one thing.

The beach house with Amy.

I was dreading to tell her, avoiding her for a few days around campus because I didn't know how to tell my best friend that I had to cancel our plans because Calum freaking Hood invited me to Paris.

It wasn't helping that Amy kept sending me texts about how long the drive would be and if Ian, my brother, was cool with us having his car for two weeks.

Amy is going to be so disappointed when I tell her. When I called Calum last night, he told me to just rip off the band-aid and tell her.

So that's why I now was waiting for Amy to show up at our local coffee shop.

To tell her I have to cancel our trip we had planned for months.

"Hey, Liz." Amy said, walking up to me from across the street. "Heya." I said before following her inside and ordering our standard coffee order. Cappuccino for me and an Americano for Amy.

We sat down at the booth we usually sit at, and took off my coat.

I was thinking of what Calum said, rip off the band-aid.

"I can't come to the beach house with you," I said. Of all the things I rehearsed in my mirror to tell this in the nicest way possible, I just said the stupidest thing ever. Amy frowned.

"What?"

"So.. Calum bought me a plane ticket to Paris during the school break... He wanted me to visit. He bought a VIP ticket for the show as well and booked me a hotel room. He really wanted to spend some days with me and introduce me to Mike, Luke and Ash and he wants to make these hipster photos at the Eiffel tower and him - I'm rambling again."

I looked up at Amy and her face was blank, I honestly couldn't read any emotion off of it. It scared me a little. The silence was really tense, so I took a deep breath and tried to explain myself a little further.

"He didn't know we planned this trip if he knew he wouldn't fly me to France, but its the only time we have a break from uni while they're still touring. I'm sorry Amy, I know how excited you were for the trip."

Another silence.

"Exactly," Amy said after a few seconds. "You knew how excited I was, we have planned this for ages! And now Calum just sends you a plane ticket and you cancel on me, just like that. Have you ever thought of me before you said yes to him? Of course, you didn't. Because ever since you met Calum its the only thing you think about"

Amy's voice got more pissed off with every word and I bit my lip as she continued her rant that I totally deserved.

"I was so freaking happy that you met our idol and you're friends with him and I've accepted the fact that that is something that will never happen to me, but you literally ditched me so many times in the past few months for Calum. It's always Calum this, Calum that. How many times have you canceled our plans because Calum face timed you?"

Everything she was saying was true, I've been a shitty friend to her ever since Calum and I became friends. "It's just... Calum and I being friends.. it feels so surreal and I forget the real world when I talk to him.." I almost whispered.

"You live your dream, good for you. But what about me? You know how much 5SOS means to me and how much our trip meant to me. I bet you didn't even ask Calum if I could come with you guys because you already had plans with me." she said, grabbing her bag.

"Amy, wait," I said as I grabbed her wrist before she could stand up. "I never meant to hurt you. I know I've been a bad friend. It's just -" I tried but she cut me off.

"It's just Calum. I know, Liz. It's always Calum because he is famous, rich, hot and your idol for the past 4 years. But is your idol really worth losing your best friend over?" Amy said as she freed her wrist, stood up and walked out of the coffee shop, leaving me all by myself.

I know I was wrong, but Calum wasn't just my idol anymore, he was also my friend. I get that I should've asked Cal if Amy could come, or maybe just meet up another time when he wasn't touring. But I didn't want to, I wanted to fly to Paris in a few days and see Calum again, and that was a selfish thought, but I couldn't help myself.

And I can see Amy every day. Calum lives in California when he isn't touring and that isn't exactly around the corner.

I didn't want to choose between Cal and Amy, but when it comes to the break next week I choose Calum.

After sitting in the coffee shop by myself for a while, quietly drinking my coffee and thinking about what happened and if I made the right choice, I stood up and went back to campus.

Just as I arrived at my dorm, my phone rang and I saw that Calum wanted to facetime. After a deep sigh, I answered. "Hey, you," I said as Calum's face appeared on my screen. He smiled at the sight of me, dimples forming on his cheek.

"Hey! How'd it go?" He asked.

"Well, she got pissed and didn't finish her coffee," I said and let myself fall on the bed. "I'm sorry for this. If I knew you plan-" I interrupted him. "It's not your fault. It's mine. I've been a shitty friend lately." I said as I stared into his beautiful brown eyes through the screen. "Am I selfish?" I asked him in a quiet voice.

Calum frowned and shook his head. "No, why would you think that?"

"Because I chose my happiness over hers by going to Paris."

"Don't think like that. Look, I overwhelmed you with my surprise and I know, when you get excited about something, you only focus on that thing and forget about the rest. That's just who you are. You just forgot about your plans with Amy and agreed to come, and yeah, that sounds incredibly stupid, but it happened. And yeah, maybe it's a little selfish but you're allowed to put yourself first." Calum said, trying his best to comfort me.

"And Amy will probably come around, you guys need each other. You're like, Bert and Ernie." Calum said and I grinned a little.

"You know Bert and Ernie are gay, right?" I said and I took a deep breath, trying not to cry on camera.

"Shut up."

We stared at each other for a few seconds, not the awkward silence stare, but more a comforting and warm stare where we take in each other's facial details.

"What should I do know?" I asked him. "Let her cool down, apologize and start from there," he said. "I'm sorry, Ashton is better in motivational speaking than me," he said and I shook my head. "Nah, you're good as well."

The dimples on his cheeks appeared again and I yawned. "I'm gonna take a power nap," I said, knowing damn well that I'm gonna lay in bed and stare at my ceiling for a few hours regretting all my life choices.

"Okay, see you in a few days."

"See you, love you," I said before flashing him a soft smile and hanging up.

It's gonna be a long, long week.