lost and found // calum hood

76 | Elizabeth

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Michael had ordered pizza and had wrapped blankets all around me, making me a little burrito. "Tell me what happened." he said, sitting crosslegged in front of me, his hand on my knee. I shrugged.

"Did you know Calum paid for my hotel stays and flights?" I asked him and raised his eyebrow. "Uh, yea. I mean, I thought you knew that too." he said a little unsure. I shook my head. "No, I didn't." I said.

"Is that really what's bothering you? The fact that he spend money on you?" Michael said, trying to figure out what was going on. I shrugged again.

"Liz.."

"I don't know, Mike. I just wish he told me that he had already paid for everything. I just feel.." I took a deep sigh and didn't complete the sentence. "Like you're bound to stay around the entire tour?" he said and I nodded. "Yeah." I said and Michael nodded. "I know, that's what happened with Crystal as well, she felt like she couldn't leave the tour because I paid some of it." he explained.

"Six months is a long time, and I know you guys have bigger breaks in between those months but what if I hate touring and I want to go home in two months? Calum already paid for the last hotel we're staying in." I told him. It was weird to open up like this to Michael. We were friends but I still had trouble opening up to Calum with some things.

"But you can, he is not forcing you to stay, if you want to leave tomorrow, he's going to be okay with that. I know that ten thousand dollar sounds like a lot, and it is, but for us.." Michael said, his hand rubbing circles on my knee to keep me calm. Calum was still outside with the doors closed, he looked up every now and again, cigarette in one hand, phone in the other, his jaw still clenched.

"I know, ten thousand is probably what you get for playing like, half a show, but I just wish he had talked to me, this is giving me so much anxiety." I told him, picking the mushrooms from my pizza. He nodded. "Look, the best thing to do is talk to Cal about it, he loves you, remember? He was so happy you wanted to come with us on tour and you know how he gets when he is excited for something. Just talk to him." he said and looked outside.

Calum was leaning on the railing, staring at the view, another cigarette in his hand. Michael got up and I followed his lead. "Go talk to him, text me if you need anything." he said before giving me another big hug and pressing a kiss in my hair.

I nodded, let him go and watched him walk out of the hotelroom.

Calum had been outside for over an hour now and it took me a few minutes before I found the courage to go out and talk to him.

When I finally did go outside, being the stubborn man he was, he didn't talk. I took my place next to him, but he kept staring at the view. "Calum, just please talk to me.. I'm sorry for yelling." I whispered, holding the ice cold railing and wondering why he hadn't come inside yet, wearing only his sweatpants and his bomberjack.

It took a few moments, but Calum finally looked over at me. "Why'd you have to bring him over? We could have worked this out by ourselves." he says, in a very low voice, one I only hear when he is either very, very mad or disappointed or just really sad.

"I knew you needed space and I know that when you get mad you don't want to talk to anyone and my head was messed up and I needed to let stuff out but I felt bad for yelling. So, I invited Crystal over but she was sleeping and Mike read the text and showed up"

Calum huffed it out and I pulled his arm.

"M' sorry for yelling earlier. Can we place talk inside before I have to worry about you getting hypothermic?" I said and he nodded, getting inside the hotelroom again. He threw his bomberjack on the chair and sat down on the bed as I followed him.

I wanted to fix out fight or discussion or whatever this was quick, I hated argueing with him.

"I'm sorry for reaction the way I did, you didn't deserve that," I started as I fiddled with my fingers. "I understand that maybe for you ten thousand dollars isn't much but for me it is. But it's not really about the money.. I'm just.. scared." I said as I tried to look into his eyes. He looked at me, his brown eyes softening. "Why?" he asked and I could swear he sounded nervous.

"It's just... Six months is a long time, Cal. What if I change my mind and want to go home next month? You already paid for everything and I doubt you'll get a refund for every hotel and flight and what if you start to get annoyed when I'm around you constantly?" I started to ramble a bit and he suddenly grabbed my hand..

"I never wanted to give you the idea that I'm forcing you into these six months. I know touring is hard. Why didn't just tell me that instead of yelling at me?" he said, rubbing his thumb over my knuckles.

I shrugged. "You know how much I hate talking about my feelings."

"Promise me that you will tell me if you want a break from the tour, okay? I won't be mad and I'm not forcing you or anything." he said. He didn't sound mad or upset, his voice was soft again. I sighed and let myself fall against him, he quickly wrapped his arm around my waist, pulling me into his lap.

"But please don't yell at me. I don't like it when you yell. It actually scared me a little." he said, kissing the top of my head, his blonde streak falling in front of my eyes. "I'm sorry. I know, thank you for not yelling back at me." I whispered back.

We sat there for a while, just holding each other. I was glad that even though we had this argument, we did fix it quickly, even if Michael helped a bit. Michael.

I quickly grabbed my phone and texted Michael, telling him we made up. Calum sighed and I raised an eyebrow. "Are you jealous, mister Hood?" I asked him and he shook his head. "No, I know you won't ever do something like that and neither will Michael. I just got upset you texted someone else instead of going straight to me, but I know that even if you went to me I wouldn't talk to you."

I giggled. "Oh I know, you're stubborn."

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this is short, i wrote this after the concert, i have slept under a bridge to see calum hood and fucking camped for two days, but i didnt want you guys to think ig ave up on you!!!

i havent preread this so sorry for fuck ups ly