Haunting Four (A Divergent Fanfic) (After Allegiant) (Completed)

Chapter 9

　

For the rest of the day I sit around my apartment thinking if it's best if I tell Tobias or not,but I still have no answers. I can't just tell him,because I know he won't believe me,and even if he did he'll probably freak out.

It's now 3:00 in the middle of the night. I can't seem to get any sleep so I get up,and walk down the dark,blue-lit, hallways. I watch the other dark,red,apartment doors pass me by until I end up in the other part of Dauntless where they train initiates. I look around at where the fear landscape room is,and the initiates dormitory is. I can't even believe I would see these places again.

As I walk down the hallway,I think about that time that I took Al's place in front of a target in the training room. I reach my hand up to my ear were it was once chipped by one of the knives that was thrown at me and smile. That was one of my happiest moment if you don't include getting your ear sliced open by a knife.

When I reach the training room,I walk in and don't even think twice of anyone seeing me.

I walk over to the guns and knives that are now hanging up on a wall. The knives are hanging in groups of three,and I grab one set and walk over to the front of a target. It's the same target as the one that I stood in front of while Tobias threw knives at me. Those were terrible times,but they seemed to be the best after the war. Nothing will ever match up to the pain we all went through during that time.

Since it has been awhile since I have thrown knives,I do as I did when I first started out. I set down all three knives on a long table next to the door,and start practicing without a knife. I focus on what's the best stance,and the motion of my arm,and soon enough I get to start throwing knives.

I get in a fighting stance and hold one of the knives in my right hand and the other two in the other. I focus on the huge dot in the center on the human like target and throw my first knife directly in the dead center. My eyes grow wide and I smile at my achievement and do the same for the other two knives. They all hit the center of the target with a loud thud that seems to echo all throught the room.

I walk up to the target to retrieve my knives and snatch them out quickly. I stare at the thick jagged edges of the blades,and rub my thumb over it. The light from a large lamp hanging on the ceiling of the training room shines onto the blade,making it shine in my face.

"What are you doing in here?" I hear someone say in the doorway.

I stop admiring the knives,and quickly turn around,already knowing who it is. It's Tobias. He approaches me with a smirk on his face. I almost smile at the fact that he's actually smiling for the first time. I guess Uriah was right about him being happier.

"Um..,I couldn't sleep." I say almost stuttering.

He walks up to the wall where the knives are hanging and grabs him a set.

"Can I join you?" he asks politely.

"Sure." I say with a kind smile on my face.

The both of us walk over to our targets,and start throwing our knives. As usual,Tobias always hits the dead center of the target without hesitating,but as for me,I hesitate a few times and miss the target.

"You'll get better at it eventually." he says with a smile. I smile back and throw my last knife. It hits the center of the target,and I look back at him for approval. He nods his head and throws his last knife that also hits the center. We both walk up the our targets to retrieve our knives for the 5 time already. As I try to pull mine out,I can't seem to get one of the knives out. It seems completely stuck to the target. Before I know it,Tobias walks over to me,and smiles a ghost of a smile and says "May I?"

"Please." I say still looking at the knife.

He grabs the knife tightly,turns it,and pulls it out with ease.

"Thank you." I say as he hands me the knife.

"You're welcome." he says.

I watch him as he checks his watch,and looks up at me.

"It's 4:57. I should be heading back." he says while grabbing his knives,and placing them neatly on the wall.

"I should be heading back to." I say walking over to the wall to put up my knives also.

When we put both our knives up,we glance at each other for a moment. We just stare into each others eyes,and I feel that same urge again. That same urge that tells me that I shouldn't lie to him,but another part of me says to not do it. It could start something that won't ever die even though I don't know what that thing might be.

I quickly look away,and start heading towards the doorway. I don't even look back as I leave,because I know that if I do,then I will loose my self control. I want to tell him about all that has happened,and kiss him again like I used to. I might not of told him things in the past ,but I want to tell him the truth now. I don't want to lie to him anymore. I just don't know how to tell it.

When I get back to my room,I immediately crawl into bed and wait for sleep to finally consume me.