Me And My Handsome Roommate [k.sj] {INCOMPLETE}

Giving up?

Lilly's POV:

  It's been about two and a half weeks since I've been staying with Jimin. We've gotten way closer to each other and I haven't really thought about Jin as I did before. I still kind of miss him but I know I have to forget about him. Well, let's be real, I know I won't. My heart wants to forgive him, but my mind is telling me not to. And I chose to listen to my mind...

"Hey Jimin, you can take me back to the apartment." I told Jimin who was in the drivers seat of the car, focusing on the road. "What?" "You can take me back to the apartment. I've stayed with you to long. I don't want to trouble you anymore." "What? Are you hearing yourself? Your not troubling me at all! I enjoy your company! And plus Jin is still there. You know that right?" "Duh, it's his apartment too. And I know but... I can't stay away from him forever. I need to just face him whether I like it or not." "Are you sure?" He asked in concern. "Of course I'm sure." I said giving a reassuring smile. "Ok. But I'll still take you to school right?" "Yes Jimin you can still take me." I said letting out a soft chuckle.

Jimin took me back to his place so I can get my clothes and everything that I used for the past few weeks. After I checked everything, I packed my bag and headed to the car where Jimin waited for me. "Can we at least go somewhere before you go back?" He asked with his pouty face. "Of course." "Yay!" He exclaimed while starting the car.

"We're here!" "The mall?" "Yup! Now let's go!" He jumped out the car. Huh, I expected to go to a nicer place, well, since it's Jimin, but I guess the mall is fine too.

"I'm sorry sir but your card had been declined." The cashier said handing back Jimin's card. "Declined?! How?! Are you sure?' Check again?! It can't be declined?!" "Jimin calm down! It's ok! Don't worry you don't have to get me these shoes. Plus there's so many they won't fit my closet." He let out a long sigh before answering, "but I wanted to get you something nice." "It's ok you don't have too." I said but he still remained sad. "Alright, how about we get these matching charms?" I said getting the matching charms that were on the counter. "But there just charms...." "but there matching charms! You can have one, and I'll have the other one! It'll be a resemble of our friendship!"

Jimin's POV:

Ouch. Did I just get friend zoned? That hurts more than I thought it would. I thought to myself, mentally clenching my chest. But I did like the matching part. "Alright. Let's get that." I showed a smile, hiding away all the pain. She handed the cashier the charms and paid the amount with her credit card. I felt bad that she had to pay for it since my card didn't work. But how?! How is it declined?! Stupid card... "Alright all done!" She said as she pulled me out the store. "Give me your keys." She said with her arm out. I obeyed her and handed my keys to her. She added one charm to my keychain and one to hers. Then she held them up together with a big smile across her face.

  "Their perfect!" She yelled in excitement and joy. She handed back my keychain and I held it in my hands while inspecting it. "Do you not like it?" I heard her say and looked up. "No," I started off by saying, and a frown appeared, "I love it." I finished off with a cheeky smile crawling upon my face. "You scared me!" She said hitting my shoulder multiple times. "Ow! Ok I'm sorry!" I said quickly trying to block the hits. She crossed her arms and made a pouty face. "I said sorry!" I said pulling her into a hug. "Let go of me!" She said pushing me away. I looked at her and she seemed mad. "Ha! You should've seen your face! You were like, wh-what?" She said cracking up while making my facial expression. "Yeah yeah whatever." I said pissed off. "Hey! Don't be mad! I'm sorry!" She said trying to contain in her laugh. "It's ok." I said forgiving her.

"Good! Now that we're all done, should we get going?" She said. I nodded my head with a fake smile. I really didn't want her to go back at the apartment. I was afraid Jin was going to hurt her again.

"You want me to come with you?" I asked while I parked in the parking lot. "Uhm. I'll be fine." "Absolutely sure?" "100% sure Jimin." "Ok. If he does something call me." "Alright I will." She said with a small smile. I smiled back and she got out of the car with her suitcase. I didn't leave the parking lot until I saw her go into the apartment safely. Once she did I headed home.

Lilly's POV:

  I stood at the front door and hesitated for a bit. I was scared to open it. I finally gathered all my courage and opened it. Right when I did, the door to Jin's room opened. We made eye contact for a split second before I looked down and rushed to my room. Just as I was about to turn the door knob, a hand grabbed my wrist. I didn't want to look up because I felt his stare piercing through me. "Where have you been all this time?" I heard his voice say, almost as if it was quivering. "Jimin's house." "Why? Why did you leave me. I told you sorry and I'll say it a million times more if that what it takes for you to forgive me. Please. I miss you. I didn't mean to kiss her back. It was an accident. I swear-" "how can you kiss someone back on accident huh?!" I let it out, facing him. He looked at me shocked, not saying anything. Then he looked at the floor. "That's what I thought." I said pulling my wrist back and going in my room, locking my door. I leaned against it, and soon felt the salty liquid slowly go down my cheek, making its way down to the floor.

I slid down against the door an hugged my knees. For some apparent reason I felt like he was still outside my door, waiting for me to come out and forgive him. As much as I wanted to, I didn't.
Stop Lilly.
Stop your crying.
You can't cry.
You broke up with him.
Why should you be crying.
Get over him.
He's not important to you anymore.
Don't think about him.
Hate him.
He's the bad guy.

Don't listen to yourself.
Listen to your heart.
Forgive him.
Get back together.
Be happy again.
Stay with him for he rest of your life.
Marry him.
Have kids with him.
Grow old with him.

All these weird things were going through my head. It's was driving me insane. "Stop it! Let me be! Leave me alone! I can't take it anymore!" I yelled out of frustration, lying on the floor, unable to take it all in. "Lilly! Open the door!" I heard yells coming from the other side of the door. I ignored all the shouting. I ignored him pounding on the door. I ignored everything. Why am I like this? Why am I going crazy? What's happening to me. What is he doing to me? What am I doing to myself?

More and more questions filled my mind. I was to busy to realize I was crying even more. Then I instantly stopped. I was pulled into an embrace. My vision was to blurry to see who is was, my head spinned, unable to make out what the person was saying. I felt being picked up, and laid in my bed. I felt the same person lay next to me. I felt safe, comforted, warm, unworried about everything that just happened.

Jin's POV:

Yelling was instantly heard, and I didn't even have to think about who it was. I recognized the voice to well, but I wish it wasn't her. I threw my phone on the bed, running towards her room. I yelled and pounded on the door for her to let me in but it was no use. The only way to get in was to kick down the door. "Move out of the way!" I yelled before kicking it down, seeing her on the floor. I pulled her into a tight hug, and she instantly stopped crying. "I'm sorry. I really am. I'm sorry I've been doing this to you. I'm sorry you've been going through this. I'm sorry for making you sad. I'm sorry for everything I could be sorry for." I said quietly. I pulled her off the floor and laid her in her bed. I laid next to her and she breathing started to calm down. "Shhhh, your alright. It's ok." I said, caressing her soft hair.

After a few minutes I looked at her to see her sleeping. I smiled at her beautiful angelic face and kissed her forehead before getting off the bed and covering her with the bedsheets. I slowly walked out of her room and went back to my own room, laying on my bed, staring at the blank ceiling, repeating the same question to myself over and over.

Why am I still trying?

A/N: Update for the week ;) also some credit for kiyomikittykat for helping me with part of this chapter. Also thank you for the reads! We're half way from 1k! Let's try to reach it just like my first book! We can do this! Love you!!! Also! One more thing! I think this book is almost over.... I'm actually not completely sure, maybe yes, maybe no. We'll  see🤷🏽‍♀️ anyways! Byeeee!