Him. ( A Hayes and Matthew fanfic)

Chapter 31/ save me.

•Renee's POV•

I've been depressed for as long as I can remember I just never realized it until I was about 12. And I didn't know I was severely depressed until a year later.

A lot of people say it's all in my head and even other people say that I'm lying cause I don't seem like it and I don't dress in black and all that shit. Just because I don't make it obvious doesn't mean that I'm not, it just means I'm not an attention whore.

Me, Matt, Hayes, Cam, Jessica, and Liza were all watching a movie until all these dark things just started to come to my mind. At first it was the usual memories of my happy past that are long gone came to mind which happens a lot. But then I started thinking about dying, and I decided I didn't want to talk, or eat, or breathe anymore.

Tears came to my eyes and I tried to blink them away cause its not like I could blame it on the movie, we were watching the Breakfast Club.

I held it until the movie was over and Liza got up.

"I'm hungry." She said

"Me too." Jessica said " Lets make dinner." They grabbed my arm and pulled me up.

"Yeah sure. Um I'm just gonna go to the restroom."

"Okay. Hurry." Liza said. I nodded.

And I looked back at Matt. And he smiled at me. I didn't want to leave him, I just can't take it anymore. Gosh it sounds like I'm breaking up with him..

I walked to the restroom and I looked in the mirror. I automatically started to cry. 'I'm so ugly' 'worthless'. Thats all that was in my mind.

I took a blade that was in the drawer and cut my wrists. I already has scars.

I then opened the cabinet and there were pills..

•Liza's POV•

Renee was taking a long time so I went to go knock on the bathroom door. And I heard crying.

"Renee.?"

"I wanna die.!" she yelled through the door

"Oh my god." I whispered. I tried to open the door but it was locked. I ran to the guys.

"Guys.! I think Renee is trying to kill herself.!!" I ran back to the door and Matt, Hayes, Cam and Jessica ran behind me in that order.

I still kept trying to open the door until Matt and Cam pulled me aside and kicked the door in.

"I can't open it.!!" She yelled and grunting trying to open the pills.

Matt grabbed her and threw the pills. Me and Jessica are crying as we see Matt holding Renee crying. Cam is sitting on the floor with his head between his legs. Hayes is pacing back and forth and he punches the wall scaring all of us.

"Should we call 911.?" Jessica asks

"I don't know. Cause if you do her mom will find out and thats the one thing she doesn't want, for her to worry." I say

"Okay. I'll just take her to bed." Matt says picking her up bridal style and takes her to the room and lays her down.

•Matt's POV•

After Renee falls asleep I walk back to the living room and sit down on the couch and start crying.

"What if I wasn't able to save her.?"

"You did bro." Hayes says rubbing my back.

"Okay but what if this happens again and its too late.?"

"Your her hero man. You'll be able to save her." Cam says

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Sooo those first two paragraphs are actually true. And yeah.

Matt actually has saved me in many ways. 😌

Seeing Matthew cry breaks my heart. 😰

QOTC: have you ever missed someone so much it hurts.?

AOTC: yeah. too many times then i should.