Falling for the Good Boy *Editing*

Chapter 42

Please play Matt Kearney's 'Breathe In Breathe Out'.

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I sat in silence for a long time before James spoke up again.

"Well? Aren't you going to say anything?" he asked me. I shook my head no.

"Rae, please. Just say anything. I don't care what it is, just talk to me," he begged.

"Why?" I asked the first thing that comes to my mind.

"Why what?"

"Why did you decide to tell me now? Right when I'm happy with someone, someone who I know loves me no matter what, why do you come forward with this? I could've accepted it earlier on, but not now. It sounds so crazy right now."

James lowers his gaze and rubs his hands together. "I don't know. I guess I just don't want you to get too attached to someone without knowing how I feel about you."

"That's incredibly selfish, James." I can't believe that he thought that coming to me with this now would make sense.

"I can't help but be selfish with you, Rae. You know that."

"James, I think that I need to let this sink in for a little bit before I can talk to you reasonably," I told him. My head was spinning with confusion.

"Yeah, okay. Will you call me tomorrow? Or something like that?" God... His voice was so sad, I felt horrible. He sounded like he was desperate for me.

"Yeah, I'll do something like that." I stood up to start heading back to my hotel room. James stood up a split second after me and wiped his palms on his jeans.

As I started to walk forwards, there was one thought that kept pushing itself to the front of my brain.

I wasn't hurt when Alek told me he met someone else, I was ecstatic. There was no trace of feelings left for Alek. But when James told me he still had feelings for me... That was a completely different story. My heart stopped, but then the beating started again but five times as fast.

I was thrilled, and that scared me.

I finally made my way back to the hotel room, the journey a blur. Blake was sitting up in the bed, flipping through TV channels.

"Hey!" His smile was big and he muted the TV as I walked in.

"What did you and them talk about?" I could tell that Blake was trying to remain enthusiastic, but his smile was faltering a little.

"Alek told me how college was going and about his new girlfriend, Grace." I wasn't sure if Alek and Grace were actually in a committed relationship, but Alek made it seem that way.

"Good for him. And James?" A little bit of Blake's confidence was back in his face and I didn't want to take that away from him, so I lied.

"He said that he just wanted to come down here to see how I was doing, how Australia was treating me."

Blake nodded, a smile on his face. He lifted his arm to let me curl into him and we watched TV for hours. Finally, I spoke up.

"We should get going again. At this rate, we'll be on the road for years."

"I'd be okay with that," Blake whispered, kissing the top of my head. I smiled, but bile rose in the back of my throat at the lie I told him earlier.

Blake and I packed up out suitcases again and made our down to the lobby. I sent a text to Alek and James.

Blake and I are on our way out.

Blake placed the two suitcases in the back of his car and the two of us heard four feet smacking the pavement as James and Alek made their way to the car.