ISSUES || Taegi

Chapter 6

Taehyung POV

As soon as I arrived at school the next day I could only feel the nervousness creeping up my spine. I knew Yoongi wouldn't be easy to convince or please, and it would take long for him to admit I had won, but I had to stay slightly positive, I had to come off as confident. Sooner than later I saw his face in the huge crowd of students and after taking a deep breath I started walking rather fast towards him.

"Hey, Yoongi Hyung, if you have time right now I could tell you about my idea"- I said trying to sound confident even if I was shaking.

"Right now? Don't you have a class?, I mean I don't mind skipping but you definitely don't seem to be the type to skip class"- He said eyeing me up and down with a monotone voice tone.

"Oh um, yeah I would actually never skip class but Jungkook showed me this morning an email the Chemistry teacher sent saying he wouldn't be in class today, so we could work on other stuff"- I said rambling and letting my nervousness show as I fidgeted with my fingers.

"Right, so I guess we have this period for you to show me your very impressive idea"- The older boy said in a sarcastic voice while smirking, which made my blood boil.

After that conversation, we headed towards the green area of the school where we sat down, I took out my notes and started explaining.

"So...As you really seem to like this book, I tried to come up with something that wasn't too corny but that honored the story"- I said trying to gain some time and organize the ideas in my head.

"Taehyung no rambling, just tell me your plan"- Yoongi scoffed making me feel bad.

"Yeah...right...So as 1984 is a dystopian novel with a shit ton of political commentary and stuff, I figured we could make what I like to call 'reality representation'"- I said checking my notes.

"I'm sorry, a what?"- He replied with a raised eyebrow and a confused look on his face.

"It's kind of like a play...but it borders more on a roleplay situation, which is not actually corny because it is only used briefly and for demonstrative purposes"- I said holding tightly onto my notebook and trying to sound 'profesional'.

"That is still very vague, you'll have to explain yourself more"- He said still looking a bit lost, it frustrated me a bit, I was already anxious enough.

"What I mean is yes we explain the book, but in order to pay tribute to it, we avoid the powerpoint stupidity and instead we create an educational and sort of...sensory representation. So, for instance, both of us are part of a totalitarian regime, we are not characters of the book because that's too cheesy, and we take control of the classroom, we sort of recreate main points of the novel, without actually interpreting them as they happened, but more as the message they sent, the feelings and emotions they convey"- I said trying to sound as clear as I could even if I knew I was still being confusing.

"I think I kind of get your idea, but I still don't buy into it, I mean yeah it is creative and better than a shitty powerpoint presentation, but I still think it's not enough"- He said smirking, I knew he had completely gotten my idea, he was smarter than what he seemed, but I also knew he wasn't letting me win.

"Hold on Hyung, I have it all planned out, hear me out first. We will dress in uniforms, maybe similar to the ones in the novel, any ministry you want, and we go through every focal point in the novel, the hidden truth, the supposed wars, the censorship, the whole love discussion, the propaganda, the mind control...everything, but not as it happened, but in it's essence. We could even dive subtly into Orwell's underlying metaphorical message and play some music that goes with the vague play environment, which as I already told you is only educational and doesn't really imply a full act display"- I said speaking really fast as I was starting to become more nervous, I had no ideas if what I said had made sense, I had completely forgotten about the notes, it was a whole mess, Oh my God he was going to say no and I would hate myself for not being able to do that one thing right.

"Okay I kind of was really convinced about saying no just because I didn't want to do this stupid project, but the way you put it is actually really interesting. You know? I hate Orwell's original intentions and message with this book, but the way he created it applies to any context, and it is rough and real, that's why I like it. You did a good job, Kim, I'm in"- He said in an almost gentle tone and gave me a genuine smile, something I had never seen, and it made me feel warm.

"Alright then, when do you want to do it?"- I said almost excitedly.

"Well, we kind of have only a week left so...Maybe we could use break time in the library or something and if we don't have time we could perhaps go to your house?"- He replied softly, almost as if he was embarrassed.

"Oh...Um...Sure, see you at lunch then"- I said picking my stuff up and saying goodbye. 

I wasn't too pleased with the idea of him, or anyone really, going to my house, but he didn't offer his place and I was too bad at saying no, stupid me. Maybe we could finish it at school and we wouldn't have to go to my place, it's not that I hated my house or anything, it just didn't feel right. Since my dad left I kept that resentment, he hated when I had people over, he would even beat me over it sometimes, so that just stuck with me.

The rest of the day was pretty average and boring, anxiety had started to wear down a bit until it was finally lunch time. Yoongi and I ate with our friends and then left to the library to start working. He sort of planned out exactly what we were going to do, I wanted to move as fast as I could trying to avoid the inevitability of him going to my house. It felt like him entering my life, my secrets, my vulnerability, seeing a part of me I wouldn't want anyone to see. I know it sounds stupid to feel like that because of a house visit, but I just fucking did.

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Hey guys, what did you think? I know 1984 id kind of a basic pick for a book but you know, literally everyone reads that freaking book in high school. Also, I think it's a good book and it kind of suit Yoongi's personality and likes in this fic. Idk, I hope you are enjoying the course I'm taking to evolve Tae's and Yoongi's relationship.

Have a nice day <3.