ISSUES || Taegi

Chapter 47

Taehyung POV

Things had been dream-like for the past two months or so, granted Yoongi and I were not together... But could I complain? I was having the time of my life, it was almost like a constant sugar rush, I had never felt so happy for such a prolonged time. It was simply amazing, though there was some weird feeling growing in my gut, I tried to disregard it as my simple back thought that had to do with Jimin's words, but it finally got to a point where I couldn't just ignore it, it was evident something was going on and I had no clue what it could be.

For the past two weeks Yoongi had started acting kind of weird, before that he had been completely invested, outstandingly invested if I can say so, he almost looked as if he had completely forgotten about Jimin and somehow was deeply in love with me... Even if I was aware that couldn't be completely true. Lately, he seemed more distant, slowly but surely, he started becoming less present. The first few days it was simply him zoning out more than usual, his head seemed to be in another place constantly, I tried to ask what was going on but he just said he was tired because he had to pull some all nightery in order to get all his senior coursework done... I believed him at the moment because I knew the year was coming to an end and he had to fill some requirements to graduate and stuff.

The thing is, it didn't really stop with the zoning out. A few days later he began kind of ignoring me? Well, not really, he was still talking to me and hanging out, but he started to take longer to answer my messages, whenever we were together he talked less and seemed more monotone, I think the best way I can physically represent that is like dyed hair fading out, yeah it's pretty vibrant and pretty at the beginning, but then it starts washing off and becomes lifeless and grayish. At this point, my paranoia was growing and eating me alive, but I didn't want to seem clingy or insane, after all, maybe I was just seeing things wrong, he was probably very busy and tired from studying and doing homework, right? I tried reassuring myself, telling myself I was being too paranoid and I had to stop, it was just my mind fucking me up when really, I had absolutely nothing to worry about, once he was done with the essays and the exams, it would all go back to normality. But once again... My paranoia had almost always been justified.

And then... It just got worse, to the point where keeping it all to myself got way too hard, it felt as if I was literally choking on my emotions. The last few days he stopped going with me home, at first he stayed a bit less, or simply brought me home and said he really had to study so he couldn't stay, but now he was not even driving me home, that wasn't an issue, I could just take the bus, the issue was that it all seemed very... odd, yes I knew he was busy, Jin and I had briefly talked recently and he had told me that during these last months Seniors have a LOT to do, I knew maybe he was stressed, but he almost seemed... dead inside around me at this point. I wanted to just be understanding, not completely insane because of my insecurities, but it was really hard when he had genuinely switched completely, he wasn't even acting the way he did when we were just friends, he was almost acting the way he did back then when he didn't like me at all.

Not only had he stopped taking me home, he wasn't even hanging out with me at school, he would sometimes randomly disappear during lunch break, he barely answered my texts, during Literature class it almost seemed like he was truly ignoring me, and he just never called me baby anymore, or kissed me, or even held my hand under the table, it was like talking to a block of ice. I tried not to think too much about it, still, trying to hide behind the whole he's just stressed and busy, but I knew that even if that was the case, he wouldn't have disregarded me entirely... It was like seeing a completely different person, fucking hell one time I tried to barely grab his arm comfortingly and he moved me away. I didn't want to be that paranoid asshole, but I felt like I was disintegrating by not saying anything.

I texted him, I wanted to talk about it, for him to actually tell me what was going on, to at least show some sort of human emotion... But then he didn't answer, the next day at school I didn't even see him, I knew he had gone because I saw his backpack on his desk for Literature class, but he didn't really show up to class for some reason. I was beyond confused at this point, and honestly, heartbroken... I knew I had no business being this concerned or sad, we were not together and if he suddenly decided he didn't like me anymore or something he could get away with it, there was nothing between us anyway, right? But still, I had to find out at least what was going on.

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"Tae, I'm home early!"- My mom screamed from downstairs, it was barely 7 pm and I was in my room getting some work done.

"Mom? Why did you get out so early, this hasn't happened in like...? A year"- I said as I came downstairs, kind of glad to see mu mother, spending so much time alone did drive me crazy sometimes, especially now, and especially considering I still hadn't even told Jungkook about what was going on currently with Yoongi.

"Well that's because I think I have good news and so today they let me get out early today so I could talk to my family"- She said with a smile across her face.

"Well, and what could it be that's so important and so good that you need to so urgently tell your family?"- I asked nonchalantly sitting next to her on the sofa as she signaled me to do.

"Well... I was offered a better position as a head registered nurse, which means I will get more pay and I will be able to work fewer extra hours to make amends"- My mother said excitedly and a smile grew on my face upon hearing that.

"Really!? Mom, that's incredible, I told you someday they would have to give you a raise! I'm so happy for you and for both of us, in general!"- I said as I hugged her tightly, he hugged me back and laughed a little, but then she pulled away and cleared her throat.

"There's one thing though"- She stopped for a second and then started again- "The offer is not for here... They offered me that position in another hospital, in another city, around 350 km away from here... That is why I wanted to talk to you first, they gave me a month to think about it, but I just want to be sure you would be okay with, you know, leaving everything behind"- She finally said not really looking into my eyes, she seemed nervous, and the news had hit me like a truck, moving away? To a new city?

"Wow... That's... A lot to take in mom, I- I think I may need to, think about it a bit if that's okay with you"- I said with my mouth still open from the shock... I didn't want to leave, I would have blatantly told her no if it wasn't because it was such a good opportunity, and because I knew how hard she worked to get here... I was just wordless.

"It's fine sweety, I know it's a tough decision, I already told you we have a month, so you can think about it... Anyway, we can sort everything out, I promise"- My mom said reassuringly as she rubbed my back a bit and then got up to go to the kitchen.

I stayed sitting for a bit, just nothings going through my head, how could I possibly leave my whole life behind? I had a lot to think about at the moment, lots of things going on at the same time, and I just didn't really know what to do.

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Heeey, long time no see! I finally finished moving which is such a relief because honestly what a stressful time. Anyway, I'm sorry for what's coming and I'm also sorry because... this shit's almost over.

But thank you very much for all the support! I genuinely wouldn't have gotten this fat if it wasn't because of all the love!

Have a nice day <3.