ISSUES || Taegi

Chapter 20

Yoongi POV

So, it had been about a week since Hoseok's fucking reunion or whatever, and since Taehyung and I kissed. To be fair I am really glad that we both agreed on pretending that never happened and haven't brought it up ever since, I am really starting to feel close to him, almost as if things that bothered me before about his personality weren't that important anymore... It has already been a while and I feel like I appreciate his friendship a lot to just let it go because of a dumb thing we did while we were drunk, maybe it has to do with the fact that Namjoon and I don't really talk much anymore, we are in the same group but things have become awkward. On the other end there's Jimin, I know I technically didn't cheat on him, but it still kind of feels that way, maybe it's better if I don't tell him because, the truth be told, I'm really into him and now I know I want things to move further.

It is crazy isn't it? I'm close to becoming a senior and my life has suddenly changed, probably for the better. I've felt shitty since I can remember, my life has always been a mess, but somehow even if I still have to take Zoloft, even if my dad died when I needed him the most, even if my mom is a fucking asshole and hates me and thinks I'm a good for nothing, even if my best friend and I have drifted away... I don't feel completely awful, there is now a silver lining, I finally got more friends, I don't get much in trouble anymore, and there's Jimin, he's kind of been like sunshine since we began talking a few months back, he makes me happy. But yeah, maybe Tae has something to do with it too, I would never tell him though.

And things had been pretty average, except of course for the fact that Namjoon and I are not really close anymore, and the fact that Jungkook hasn't shown up since the reunion, probably because that now that we all know he has a girlfriend he can spend some quality time with her at school, I've heard his parents are really strict about that so... Yeah. Today I waltzed kind of excitedly and early into my literature class hoping to be able to continue a very random conversation about dinosaurs I was having through text the night before with Tae, it was quite interesting even if it sounds dumb, but well, he never showed up, which was kind of weird because he literally never misses class, ever. I was starting to get kinda worried, maybe he was very sick or something, so I texted him, but he didn't answer. Things got even weirder as I got into the cafeteria during lunch time and saw Jungkook sitting on our table, without Seoyun. I decided to ask if they knew anything about Taehyung.

"Hey guys, uh did Tae tell any of you why he didn't come to school today?"- I asked kind of hesitantly and looked around, they all seemed clueless, Jungkook was staring directly into his plate, kind of as if he knew something.

"Since I didn't see him in literature class I tried texting him, but he hasn't answered"- Jin said with a weary voice- "Do you think there's something wrong?"

"I don't know but maybe he is sick, that's why I asked"- I said shrugging but kept my gaze on Jungkook, he looked guilty, I would have to talk to him later.

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"Okay Jungkook, you know something I don't and I have the feeling it's serious, what happened with Tae?"- I said as I grabbed him by the collar, classes had just ended and I was alone with Jungkook in some spot of the parking lot.

"Why are you being so aggressive Hyung? I don't know anything"- Jungkook said nervously as he tried to release himself from my grip.

"You are lying"- I chuckled humorlessly and then heard him sigh.

"If I tell you what happened will you let me go and not beat me up?"- Jungkook asked bravely but with a scared tone laced in his voice.

"Deal"- I finally said as I let go of him.

We sat down there and he explained everything that had happened at the reunion and how Taehyung had betrayed him, he told me what happened that morning and how Taehyung was crying and probably had decided to leave school after that. He told that whole story with a guilty look on his face. I couldn't believe Tae would sell his best friend off like that, it didn't seem right, and it also scared me a bit. What if he was telling my secrets to everyone else too? I tried shrugging that off and told Jungkook that perhaps there was a misunderstand and that Tae didn't tell Jin, that maybe he somehow found out on his own, Jungkook didn't look to convinced but to be fair I didn't know much about Taehyung's past to tell if Jungkook had fair reasons to react this way, in either case he agreed to think it through... Then he told me something, the reason he felt guilty, and it completely explained my weary feeling.

"Yoongi Hyung... You and Tae are kind of close right?"- He asked after some silence.

"Um well, yeah, I would say so"- I said a bit unsure about that.

"It's just... I know all of the things I told him hurt him a lot, in fact I'm pretty sure he had an anxiety attack after I left considering how much he was crying. I maybe shouldn't say this but I just feel really bad and can't just go to his door now and see if he's okay, so I'm telling you this in hopes you can maybe, I don't know, console him or something"- Jungkook said slowly and sparked my interest- "Tae is a very self-destructive person, yeah he is bubbly and seems very joyful but the truth is he is very anxious and has a tendency to over feel... With this I'm just going to say that, every time he gets really low, he goes into these weird forums and dating apps and messages random 30-year-old dudes and has sex with them, very impulsively, without thinking about the consequences, he does it to numb himself out, it makes him forget about everything for a while, but then he just feels very guilty. This has been doing this for about two years or so now... I'm pretty sure that's what he did today"- Jungkook said with a worried voice... My eyes opened like plates, I couldn't believe it.

"Shit, okay, that's dense...I'll go check on him, don't worry, and thank you"- I finally said giving an understanding smile to Jungkook.

He wrote Tae's address down on my hand and I just started driving. I never expected that from him to be fair, and I was concerned, but I also realized how much closer I know felt to him, it made him more human somehow. I had never done anything like that but... I knew the feeling far too well. And there I was, on my way to check on my realest friend, someone I was very worried about.

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Heyo, this was going to come out earlier but basically, it all got deleted because life hates me lmao. Anyway, I'm living for worried Yoongi.

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