Surviving The Haze ☑️

Chapter Eighteen - Lucy's P.O.V

I missed J. He hadn't come to see me in over three days. Had I done something wrong? I thought back to the last time I saw him. I don't think I did anything wrong.

Not seeing him killed me. I could hear my heart breaking the longer he stayed away. 

A female Hazer came in everyday to give me food, but I wouldn't eat it. All I could feel was heartache and worry for J. I didn't have room in me to feel anything else, even hunger or thirst. I just sat and stared at the white walls.

After two days the female Hazer undid my restraints and pulled a cot in the room, with a sheet, blanket, and pillow on it. I tried to sleep but I couldn't, not while knowing J hasn't visited me in almost a week and probably doesn't plan on coming anytime soon.

I was silently crying into my pillow when I heard a knock on the door. It wasn't the Hazer if someone was knocking. She always barged in her and tried halfheartedly to force food down my throat.

A voice from the other side of the door interrupted my thoughts. "Lucy? Are you awake?"

I gasped. It was J!

I wiped my drying tears on my blanket and ran to the door. Throwing it open, I smiled up at J.

"J!" I squealed, giving him a hug. He let out a shaky breath as I squeezed him tight.

"Lucy, can you please let me go?" J hissed at me.

I frowned as I pulled back slowly and looked up at his face. He had a stern look on his as he glared down at me. I was shocked, speechless; I never thought about him coming and rejecting me.

He rejected me.

Fighting back tears, I tried to push him out of the room. "I'm, uh, sleeping right now. I need you to go."

He grabbed my arm, his face softening. "Lucy-"

I shook my head; I could feel the tears threatening to spill. "Jacku, go."

He started to back up slowly, but before I could shut the door in his face, he pressed his hand to the cool surface of it. "Lucy, you're crying. What's wrong?"

I growled as I shoved him out. "GET OUT JACKU!" I roared, accidentally shoving him to the ground. Before I could try to help him, I slammed the door and pressed my back to it. I slid down the cold metal surface before hitting my butt on the ground and wrapping my arms around my knees. 

Then I sobbed into my knees, wishing that the stupid Haze had never come to this planet.

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Jacku's P.O.V

I hadn't seen Lucy in days. I had to keep my distance from her. I had these weird feelings in my stomach and chest, but I didn't know what they were. I felt different than I ever had before. My mind constantly drifted off towards her smile, her laugh, her smell. I could barely think about anything else.

I thought this was going to make Brex mad, but he was acting the same way as me. I wanted to ask him what was wrong with us, but he would act like nothing is wrong, as usual.

This morning he was acting differently. He came out of his study with a wide smile on his face and a pep in his step. My eyebrows furrowed at the sight; I had never seen him act so.... happy.

"Brex, what has put you in this mood?" I asked him, not being able to stand it anymore.

He chuckled softly as his eyes met mine. His usually cold blue eyes looked at mine, but they were different. They sparkled with happiness, with awe, with... love?