diminutives

despedida de solteira

"the emotion that can break your heart is sometimes the very one that heals it"
                                                         - nicholas sparks

huling paalam....

maine and alden decided to have a mass celebration to remember their son. it was held at a small chapel in the south attended by a few family and close friends

after the mass, maine stood at the podium in front of the altar

she gazed at the cinerary urn that served as the final abode of their son's ashes then to the people who celebrated the mass with them and started her encomium

when i was a student, i learned, what we call in math as algebraic manipulation, ito yung ginagawa namin para i-alter o ibahin yung mga algebraic expressions para gawing mas madali at mas simple yung proseso

she was not really sure how to go about sharing her grief. but she knew she had to. because she wanted her loved ones to remember him. her son. their son whom none of them will never meet...

i tried.  she paused i tried my hardest to apply these manipulatives to make it easier. baka kasi merong solusyon.... baka — she cleared her throat  baka may mas madaling paraan

she closed her eyes and breathe heavily...

the beautiful thing about numbers... they are constant. kahit kailan ang number 1 hindi magiging number two... yung 1+1 laging equals 2 kasi kapag 3 o ibang numero ang sinagot mo siguradong mali ka na

she smiled but her eyes glistened

it's easy to know you're wrong or what went wrong or what wrong you did.... she took a moment to collect herself  ito... ngayon... hin—  once again she felt her words seem to fail her  hindi ko po kasi alam. san yung mali. ano yung mali. pano nagkamali

everyone's tearing up. through her words, everybody felt the difficulty both of them have came up against with

and all of these. lahat po ito her tears fell while she clutched the left hand side part of her chest indicating her heart  hindi po kasi numero... 

she took a moment to wipe her tears

alden wanted to run to her but he knew this is going to be part of her healing. their healing. so he allowed himself to get hurt by her suffering

hindi ako magaling dito... she wiped her tears from her cheeks kasi kahit anong gawin ko wala kasing manipulative... walang paraan para padaliin o para magawan ng mas simpleng solusyon

her pain is too much evident no one inside the chapel was spared of that agony

hindi ko po ito napag-aralan... wala naman po sigurong gustong pag-aralan kung pano ka nga ba dapat masaktan

she looked at alden and smiled

then alden made me realize... hindi ko nga siguro dapat madaliin... na dapat akong humakbang ng naaayon lang sa tamang bilang...  she looked around and heaved a deep sigh one step after the other without any definitive time of interval

she kept in mind alden's words...

masakit bumitaw pero mas masakit manatili kung wala ka ng hinahawakan. baka kasi, kaya hindi mo na mahanap ang sagot sa addition it's time you start subtracting...