**Trigger warning; there are mentions of self harm**
The door to the stairs noisily opened, revealing Dallon's hurt expression.
"I-I'm so sorry," I cried, "I shouldn't have said any of that, I regret it so much"
"I'm not here because you said those things, I'm here to see if you're okay," he told me, "you guys were screaming so loud you woke everyone up. And now literally everybody knows about that stuff. Kenny, Dan, Zack. Fuck, even the tour manager texted me from DOWNSTAIRS and asked me what the hell was going on"
"Oh my god, what did I do," I whispered to myself, laying my head in my hands.
"It's fine, Mill, really. It's Brendon's fault for screaming at you first," he said, finally sitting next to me.
"But if I left my blades at home he wouldn't have found out," I mumbled.
"Have you um.. done that recently? You never mentioned it to Brendon or myself.."
I sat there just wanting to melt into the floor and die. But instead, I slowly nodded.
"How long ago?"
"You sure have all the questions," I mocked.
"I-I'm sorry, I shouldn't have aske-"
"No, it's fine," I sniffled, "Sorry, its just been a really stressful night"
"I understand"
"I actually don't remember. Last week I think?" I responded.
He nodded, "and does Brendon know that you did that?"'
"Of course not. It's not like I can just walk up to him and be like 'oh yeah, by the way I'm still cutting, so.. shame' like, that's not how I can do things"
"I get that, but sometimes you have to tell people about these thin-"
"I told you, didn't I? Either way I'm still not sure if I regret telling you or not"
"Oh.. I'm sorry.. maybe I shouldn't have said anything.." He whispered, clearly upset with himself.
"No, it's fin-"
"It's really not though," Dallon stood up, and walked toward the door, "I need to go and uh, figure things out?" He told me unconvincingly.
"Dallon, seriously, don't hurt yourself again. I didn't mean anything to be against you, none of this is your fault I promi-"
"So, do you know where she is?" Asked a voice from outside the door, seemingly by the elevator area.
"Get down!" I whisper-yelled at Dallon, and we both sat down beside the door, ears pressed onto the cold metal.
"Of course not, Zack, she just up and left. I actually kind of regret everything I said"
"Kind of? Bitch, you should be mega regretting some of the shit you said to her. I'd be surprised if she even still wanted to be with you," Zack said bluntly, and I swear I heard Brendon's heart shatter.
"God, I just want to t-take it all back," he cried.
"I have to go out there," I whispered.
"No you don't. We could just walk around for awhile to clear our minds, and then you can talk to him. Give him more time to cool off, it's only been about ten minutes," Dallon said, and I couldn't help but give in to the thought of clearing my head.
"Yeah, you're right. Let's go," I said, getting up and starting to walk down the endless flights of stairs, Dallon following behind me.
I still didn't know what to do. Should I end things with Brendon, or should I stay with him? A battle in my head that had to be won before I could face him. It took awhile, but we finally made it down the 15 flights of stairs, gasping for air. We walked out of the building, and started to walk around the block.
My brain started to think of a pros and cons list. Of course there were more pros, but I wasn't convinced just yet.
"What're you thinking about?" Dallon questioned.
"Oh, you know, just the pros and cons of staying vs. leaving," I slightly laughed.
"And the pros are?"
"Well, he's an amazing person, he seems like he cares I guess, and he can get me to laugh"
"Andddd cons?"
"I wouldn't know if he genuinely loves me"
There was silence for a few moments.
"I think he actually does love you, he just got too overwhelmed with this whole situatio-"
"But he-"
"Shhh. You heard him in the lobby area, he wants to take it back. I think you should stay"
"Okay.. I mean, I guess I could give him a second chance," I contemplated.
"Wouldn't hurt"
"I think I'm ready to go back and talk to him," I said proudly.
"Are you sure?" Dallon asked, turning back around with me.
"As ready as I'll ever be I guess"
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Fanfiction"Hey, um-" I cut him off. "I decided that I am going to tell you, but don't tell anyone. Please." "I won't, I promise." I took his hand and dragged him to the back of the school where nobody could see or hear us, and we sat down by a tree, facing e...
