➳ Mistakes || WillNE

06. Unravelled

09/04/18 - 1 year, 1 week, 2 days a/b (after breakup)

I put my head against the door upon hearing Will's voice, trying to convince myself that he wasn't really there. This was the moment I had dreamed of for a year - a reunion with Will. It was a bit more of a nightmare, though.

"You two aren't getting out of there until you sort things out," George harshly said, and I could hear his footsteps as he and Alex walked away.

The springs of the bed creaked as Will sat down, silent. I didn't dare look at him. I didn't want him to go off on me like last night.

Sighing, I sat against the door, looking down. I heard Will sigh also. The room was silent. It was pretty awkward between us.

5 minutes.
10 minutes.
15 minutes pass.

"Can we just say we fucking made up and leave?" Will said, breaking the silence. Shocked at his talking to me, I looked up at him. He just looked fed-up. His gorgeous eyes were burning through me, so I nodded.

"ALEX! GEORGE! WE'VE MADE UP!" Will yelled, getting up and walking to the door. I slowly got up and stood a couple meters behind Will.

"Fuck off, have you. We'll come check on you two in a couple of hours," George said from the other side, before walking off again.

"Fuck sake," Will muttered, going back to the bed. I slumped against the door again, and glanced at Will. He was looking at me also.

5 minutes passed.

"Do you want to talk, then?" he sighed, almost rolling his eyes.

"S-sure..." I stuttered, and sat up properly.

"So...hows the last year been for you?" he asked, laying down on the bed.

"It's been...different. How's your year been?"

"In terms of YouTube, pretty good. I passed one million subs in December,"

"In terms other than YouTube?" I looked at him cautiously. He said nothing in response. The room fell into silence again.

A couple of minutes passed.

"I'm sorry for how I spoke to you last night..." he spoke, again, breaking the silence. "You didn't deserve that. I just...I was angry, sad, betrayed. Maybe part of me still is,"

"I'm sorry too, Will," I whispered, tears flooding my eyes.

"Can I just ask you...why did you do it? Why did you break up with me?" he whispered also. His voice was shaking, and he sounded upset.

I took a deep breath.

"I...I just wasn't...I was becoming really depressed without you with me...maybe I still am. I was ashamed, embarrassed. I thought I was holding you back from other people...better people." I began to cry. I hugged my knees. "And we never spoke. I thought you hated me, that you were fed up with me, so I decided to just end it, hoping that would solve everything."

I looked at Will, who had tears in his eyes also. We were both crying. Sadly, he patted the space on the bed next to him and crossed his legs. I slowly got up and sat next to him.

"And did it solve everything? Or anything at all?" he whispered, looking at me. I shook my head.

"Everything got worse without you. You were the string holding me together. I just unravelled and fell apart,"

He slowly, reluctantly, put an arm around my shoulders. He rubbed my arm comfortingly. We were both crying at this point.

The door slowly opened, and Alex peered his head in and smiled slightly.

"You two can leave whenever you want,"

Will nodded towards him and slowly removed his arm from around me as Alex walked out.

"I'll text you later, yeah?" he whispered, and I nodded, smiling slightly and sniffling.

He gently kissed my cheek and I got up, blushing slightly, and, with a small smile towards him, walked out of the room.

George and Alex were sat on the sofa, watching TV.

"Thank you, you two," I smiled again, and they smiled also.

"No problem, Cas," George nodded.

"We should go out sometime, us 3. Maybe Will too, if it's not too awkward," Alex suggested.

"Sounds good, Alex. See you tomorrow morning?"

"I'll knock for you and we can walk to the lecture together,"

"See you then. Bye, George."

I got back into my flat with my heart feeling happy. I collapsed onto my sofa, mentally exhausted but feeling on top of the world.

Will didn't hate me anymore.

Will didn't fucking hate me anymore.

unknown number
hey it's will, you haven't changed your number right?

cas
no it's the same, it's me

will
do u wanna have a proper catch up sometime this week? i'm here until friday, staying with alex and george

cas
does wednesday sound good? or too soon?

will
sounds good, see you then x

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