➳ Mistakes || WillNE

Prologue

'You told me that you loved me but you gone now, gone now'

I walked through a hall to a lecture, where I sat next to Alex. He didn't look at me. He just looked angry.

'And your friends they used to hate me, I was way too deep to care'

We hadn't spoken in months. After breaking up with you, he was angry with me. So were George and Josh.

'And I know I'll always love him but it's hard now, hard now'

I could tell he hated sitting next to me,  and that he just hated me generally, but every other seat was taken. We were stuck together.

'Cuz that bottle on the counter pushed me way too far away'

I just wanted to get back to the flat. I needed a drink. Being around Alex, who I was once so close to, killed me. I fucked up. I knew I that I did. He was a constant reminder of that.

'I left your ass a message on your home phone'

You never answered when I called - did you block my number? I just wanted to hear your voice as your phone went to voicemail. I needed the comfort, the safety. I needed to remember what home felt like.

'Think you blocked my number on your cell'

I phoned you on your mobile too. You blocked me again. Do you hate me that much? Did I hurt you that bad?

'I wish you would pick up, don't wanna go home, I don't know what's waiting for me there'

I don't want to be alone in my flat. Stephen didn't see me anymore; not that we fell out, though. He transferred to Manchester Uni to do his comedy degree. I lived alone, in a shitty little flat. It was dreary. Boring. Plain.

'I might just stay out all night, tired of waking up to fighting in my bed'

A bar sounded inviting. But not our bar. I just put my head on the table and closed my eyes. I couldn't listen to the lecture. I began to cry silently.

'And I can't sleep its been a long night, tired of facing all these demons in my head'

I miss you, Will.