She will be loved

It doesn't matter anymore...

I had to tell Adam. There was no doubt about it, he was the Dad. Would he even listen to me after finding me kissing his own friend? He had to, considering that he went much further with Georgie Lea, he just doesn't know that I know, still.

It was tempting to run out of the room and hug Sharna and tell her about the results, but Adam had to know first, so I decided to tell him as soon as the meet and greets were over.

I staggered into his changing room wait for him. I had make up all down my face and my eyes were still sore and swollen from the tears and the stress from the whole situation. I never wanted to upset Adam, all of this seemed really childish, I felt like saying to him 'You started it!'.

I just needed to be loved, and James loved me when Adam didn't. I couldn't just reject the love that James gave me, it meant something. He risked his well being for me.

It wasn't long before Adam stormed into his room, throwing stuff off shelfs and yelling inaudible things at no one in particular.

"Adam!" I yelled, in hope to get his attention.

He turned to me in shock, only just aware of my presence. He shook his head at me.

"Why?" he sounded like he was about to cry. "Why? With James? How long has this been going on? Is there any more secrets you need to tell me? Give me a.."

I cut him off mid-shout.

"I need to tell you something Adam, listen for christs sake!" I screamed at him.

He turned and faced me his face reddened.

"I don't care what you have to say you evil little..."

"IM PREGNANT!" I yelled, without considering the consequences of telling him mid-argument.

"What? When did you find out?" Adam sounded horrified, but a lot calmer now.

"Just now, it is yours before you start jumping to conclusions" I cried at the end of the sentence.

Adam shook his head and threw stuff around the room.

"I want nothing to do with you, or the baby!" He was giving me a headache, all the shouting.

"I'll message you later, when you've calmed down. You might want to rethink that statement" I sobbed, slamming the door behind me.

I waited in James room for a few hours. He respected the fact that I wanted to keep the reason I was upset a secret.

When I thought Adam would have calmed down enough to answer me truthfully, I messaged him.

Amelia>Adam

You are going to help bring up the baby aren't you?

My hands were sweating as I waited for a reply. My phone buzzed and I picked it up with my fingers crossed.

Adam>Amelia

I'm sticking to my words, I want nothing to do with you, or the baby.

Tears started rushing down my face.

I ran through the hallway and out the building. There was a pharmacy not far from here where I could pick up the pills. Once I'd bought them I figured that the boys would be in the tour bus by now, and I had to stay with them. I rushed back to the bus.

Adam sighed as he saw me get in the bus and turned his head away from me.

I sat silently and alone at the back, ready for a good nights sleep right after one quick thing. When we reached the hotel, I made eye contact with no one but James. He previously said I could spend the nights in his room and he would sleep on the sofa. I followed him to our room and I went straight into the bathroom. There was one thing left to do now.

Take the pills, and abort the baby.