She will be loved

Please dont try so hard to say, Goodbye.

The nurse came in the room and checked the sheet. She looked surprised when she saw that I had signed it.

"Okay, we need to get you ready as soon as possible in theatre in order to save your baby, are you ready to go now?" she asked, attempting a soothing voice.

I looked at James, he looked me in the eyes and a single tear fell.

"I love you James"

"Amelia, I love you more"

"Im ready to go" I looked up to the nurse.

She nodded at me and took me through to theatre. James followed shortly after us. I kept looking behind at James, I love him. He stood by the window of the room I was in when the nurse gave me a mask to send me to sleep. I waved through the window at James and he waved back.

"Goodnight" I whispered, hoping he could lip read.

"Goodnight"

With that, I put the mask on and closed my eyes....

James' POV.

I had to let her go. It was her choice and I had to respect that, because I love her. When her eyes closed I died on the inside. I need that girl.

I called Adam, I hated him but he loved Amelia, despite what he did to her, he still loves her.

"Adam, get to my local hospital, it's Amelia."

He hung up the phone. I didn't know at that point whether he was going to come or not. I sat on the chair outside of the window for about 5 minutes just looking at her beautiful face.

I was interrupted by Adam running down the hallway, shouting at nurses to tell him where Amelia was.

"Adam!" I half shouted.

"What the fuck happened to her?! Tell me what happened to her now!"

"Adam shut up and let me explain,  I told her about the band splitting up and she freaked out. She ran away from me and I shouted her back whilst chasing her. She looked behind her and didn't see where she was going, she fell and hit her head and possibly injured the baby, but no one is sure. Right now she is having surgery to remove... to remove your baby, it could kill her but she wants her baby to be alive and happy." I explained as calmly as I could.

"Not my baby, it's yours, that's what she wanted." Adam stated.

I nodded.

We waited outside for what felt like a lifetime.

Finally, the nurse came out and told us the baby was fine and was breathing very well considering it was premature. I thanked god at that point.

"And how is Amelia?" I asked shakily.

"She is still unconscious and it is not likely she will live for as long as half an hour, I am so sorry, you can come in and sit with her if you wish."

The nurse gestured towards the door.

What I just heard couldn't be true. I knew at this moment that it was going to be really hard to live without her.

I rushed into the room and kneeled by her side. I took hold of her hand and kissed it.

"I love you Amelia Allen."

I saw Adam watching from outside, he was crying.

"It's going to be really hard without you sweetheart, unfortunately I'm not too good at catching you when you fall I guess. I'm so sorry, you were a good girl, you deserved none of this. I know Adam still loves you, so I'm going to let him say a quick goodbye to you."

I kissed her on the head and waved for Adam to come in. He raised his eyebrows, shocked that I was allowing him in. I nodded to him.

He slowly walked in and held onto her hand.

"I'll give you two some time alone" I choked on my words and I walked out to find a nurse.

"Hey! Nurse!" I shouted over the nurse I recognised. "What gender is the baby?"

"It's a little girl" the nurse smiled sweetly at me.

I wandered back into Amelia's room. Adam was bawling his eyes out. He had never been this way before, I heard him stutter some 'Sorry's and I realised that he really did regret everything he had done.

I got down on my knees at the other side of Amelia's bed.

"Fuck it" I muttered.

I moved Amelia up the bed a little bit and layed next to her.

"What are you do....?" Adam trailed off his sentence when he realised that I wanted to lay with her for one last time.

The next thing that happened I could never be prepared for.

A long loud beep went off, and I knew what this meant. She had gone. Amelia had died beside me.

"No! Amelia no! Please don't go! Stay with me!" I screamed out.

I hugged her tight and refused to let go whenver Adam tried to get me off her.

"Amelia, I need you..." I cried in her ear.

I ran out of the room to find a nurse. When I found her I shouted to her.

"I'm ready to name the baby!"

"What will that be then?" she asked, almost excited which sickened me.

"Her name will be Amelia Allen, and I won't stop loving her, ever."

"That's good" the nurse smiled at me and went to go and fill out the birth certificate.

"James..." Adam shouted from back in Amelia's room

"What?" I asked quietly.

"She had this in her pocket"

Adam handed me a small piece of scrunched up paper.

To James,

I hope you and boys get back together.

Remember, you still have my love, the biggest part of me.

Amelia