Drama Is All Over The Place

Chapter Fifty-Five

Ashley's Pov-
My head is a complete mess. I can't focus. I can't think straight. 'What is wrong with me?' The question I seem to ask myself daily. Ever since Howie came here, I've become even more confused and frustrated. I have to, no I need to tell my parents that I'm pregnant, even if it means telling them without Howie. Both D and I agreed to not tell anyone else. He knows I told Nessa, but I told Leighanne the other night. Hopefully he doesn't tell the guys. My emotions are every where. Thanks hormones. Most girls would be overjoyed that they were pregnant. Not me. I'm far from happy. Yes, I want kids, but I wanted to wait till I was a little older. Plus I had plans to go to college in the fall, guess that will never happen now. I just wish that this was some fucked up dream, or some alternate reality. Sadly, though it's not. It's real life. And unfortunately I have to deal with it.

Hopefully I will be able to go back to work soon. Keep me distracted from all this. My boss knows about the accident, so I'm able to come back when I feel up to it. Leighanne had called earlier and asked if I wanted to hang out with her and Nessa, I declined. Normally I would have said yes, but this time around I had to say no. 'There has to be something I can do, to help ease my mind.' I thought, looking around my room, where I currently was. I could take a bubble bath, those usually help when I'm stressed. Or I could take a walk too. Maybe I can do both, a walk and then a relaxing bubble bath? Sitting up and walking towards my closet, I changed into a tank top and some leggings, slipping my tennis shoes on. I then walked down the stairs and out of my house. Sighing I stared up at the sky, taking a breath, I began my walk.

So far I seemed to be at ease. My mind seemed to be clear. Still walking along the side walk, I nearly stopped in my tracks. I was about to pass Howie's parents house. I looked back behind me and wondered if should turn back or keep going. You know what, I can keep going. I slowly began to walk again, praying that I wouldn't see his parents. If you think I'm being a stuck up bitch, I'm not. I love D's parents, they are the sweetest people in the world. But due to my umm situation I guess, I can't talk to them. I'm afraid I'll blurt it to with out knowing. And I can't do that. Once I finally passed their house, I could relax a little again. I then decided to turn back around and head on home. I sighed and quickly walked passed their house, again. Taking that walk actually helped me out. Seeing my house, I sighed and hoped that the bath, would relax me enough to where I could sleep tonight.

(A/N: Ashley graduated highschool last year in May of '96. She took a year off to work. She's a hostess at some fancy restaurant. And as for her house. Her parents help pay for it. They pay the mortgage and she pays the bills like power, water, etc. It's not some fancy house either.)

(Below is what I picture her house looking like. Simple-ish but nothing fancy.) ⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️

(Also the other picture at the top. Is Ashley. I'm sure you all might have forgotten what she looked like. Lol)

(All my pictures come from Google mostly. Lol)