Drama Is All Over The Place

ONE YEAR!!

So as of today it's been one year since I have not cut myself!! I know most people will say that's not a big deal, but to me it is. I've struggled with self harming for a while. It started back 2 years ago, May of 2016. I was very depressed at the time, and the only relief I could get was from cutting, because I felt like I had no one to help me. I tried so many times to stop cutting, but I would last only a week. It wasn't about killing myself, it was a way to relieve the pain I was going through. 

The only reason I didn't even kill myself was because a friend of mine told me if I killed myself that they would never forgive me or themselves for that matter. So I tried to stop, but still couldn't. My family did nothing to help me, they watched me suffer for nearly 2 years. Not even bothering to ask if something was wrong. My friends were the only ones who were there for me. They knew something was wrong with me. Even though I was still cutting, they helped me out in a big way. They listened to me to tell them about my depression and how I was stressed about it too.

Soon I was able to get the cutting under control for a bit. But when I got kicked out of my house in September of last year, my depression took another turn for the worst and I began to cut myself like crazy for the last few days I was living with my parents. When I moved in with my uncle I was still severely depressed and cutting.

The last time I cut was around October of last year, the 23 to be exact. I made it a personal goal for myself to not cut myself for a year. I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to do it. But then it became a month, and then two and then three and so on. Until today October 23, 2018, when I went a year without cutting myself. And while I still have depression, it's getting better because now I don't need to cut myself anymore.