Stay With Me (Shawn Mendes Fanfiction)

The Hurt

ReganPOV

Shawn and I went to go join everyone else that was hanging out in the kitchen. "Regan, can I talk to you?" My brother says and I automatically know that he's either upset or mad.

I just get up and walk into the hallway with Jack.

"Are you really that mad at me about the whole 'me promising your fans that you would dance' thing?" He questions. I roll my eyes and try to walk past him but he stops me.

I sigh and say, "yea actually I am a little mad cus you know it makes me uncomfortable to dance in front of a lot of people." He just nods in response and turns around to walk away.

I grab Jack's arm and turn him around so that he's facing me. I was about to yell at him when my step dad comes walking down the stairs. "Morning Jack, morning Regan." He says while walking towards us.

I put on a fake smile and wave. "You know, when someone greets you, you're supposed to greet them back?" he retorts.

"At least I waved. And I didn't completely ignore you." I explain. "Well you better start watching the way you act around me." My step dad warns. I roll my eyes and huff.

I turn on the heels of my foot. As i'm walking away,i hear my step dad whisper, "i'm so tired of her."

I instantly turn around again and march up to him. "And i'm so tired of you! My mom, Jack and I were perfectly fine and we were all actually happy until you butt you're way Into this family!" I yell. "Because of you I am not even that close to my own mother anymore!" I say. "And you always wonder why I am always depressed! Well maybe it's because-" I was about to yell but I felt Jack wrap an arm around me, meaning that I should stop.

I roll my eyes at both of them and stomp upstairs. "Honey what's wrong?" My mom questions. "Ask your husband." I retort as I march down the hall and to my room. I walk Into my room and slam the door shut.

I get so mad and fed up with everything that I do what depression normally leads up to.

I walk into my bathroom and grab my razor blade I broke last week. I take out the blade and pull up my shirt. There are previous scars and marks across my stomach from last time I did this.

I put the blade against my skin and swipe it across my stomach. I continue this multiple times. Within 5 minutes, there are 15 cuts layered across my stomach.

I wash off the blade and put it back in it's safe hiding spot. I quickly clean up the left over blood so that it doesn't bleed through my shirt.

I go back to my room and grab my recording supplies and stuff it in its bag. Before I head out of my room, I grab my guitar.

I walk down the stairs and grab my house keys. I walk out the front door and make my way towards the park.

By the time I get there the park is mostly empty, except for a couple of kids playing on the play ground.

I set up my tripod and place my camera on it. I take out my guitar and sit on the case in front of the camera.

"What's up guys! it's Regan and today i'm going to be singing Little Things by One Direction." I begin the picking pattern to the song for the intro. I start singing and get so lost in the music.

"Thank you guys so much for watching! If you liked this cover please give it a thumbs up! And until next time Bye!" I say while getting up to cover the camera and turn it off.

I put my guitar away and pick up my tripod with the camera. I went to empty, flat, and well spaced out area and set down my guitar and camera. I turn on my camera and do and intro.

"Hey guys! today, I'm gonna be dancing to Chachi's version of I should've Kiss You by Chris Brown, let's get started! I say as I cover the camera with my hand and turn on the music. I uncover the camera and skip back to my starting point.

As soon my counts come in, I begin dancing. I forget everything that happened today. I close my eyes and just continue my counts and motions.

By the time I stopped, I saw my brother standing behind the camera looking at me with a smile. he turns off the camera for me and comes up to me .

"I'm sorry I told everyone you would dance at magcon." he apologizes while engulfing me in a hug. I just nod in approval of his apology.

"And I'm sorry that our family is like this now, I miss dad too." he explains. "I wish he didn't have to be gone for years. And only see us for a few weeks, and go back for another couple of years." I say between tears.

Jack embraces his hug around me and rubs my back. " he's in the military, he's doing his job." Jack explains

I nod and continue to cry in his chest. After a bit, I break the hug and pack up my camera. Jack and I walk back home.

Before Jack opens the door, I stop him. "I need to tell you something , you're gonna get upset with me." I explain.

"Did you do it again Reg?" He asks. I look down at my feet and nod. He sighs. "I love you. and I know life can be rough. but please stay strong ReggyBear." he explains and kisses the top of my head.

"I'm sorry." I simply say. He nods and opens the door .

A/N

So this is where everything is starts becoming a roller coaster. Now that Regan's secret came out, let's see what goes on from here.

Just a little message to people that self harm, please don't cus you have a huge future set ahead of you❤️

And I know how it feels cus I used to self harm but I stopped. so stay strong🙏

Talk to you guys soon ❤️

😇Angel😇