Behind Closed Doors

Chapter 50: Emotions

I start to cry and Hayley pulls me in, giving me a hug.

"Hey it's ok." She says trying to reassure me.

"Its not!" I say pulling back, wiping my face. "Its Michaels baby... Marcus can't find out about this."

She lowers her eyebrows.

"Well... what are you going to do then?"

"I don't know." I sigh, as tears roll down my face.

I lean back on the wall and shake my head.

"This baby is Michaels, and I'm not ready for one! I'm not ready to be a mother."

"So what are you going to do? You can't exactly hide your pregnancy from Marcus."

I put my face in my hands.

"Layla?" She says sounding concerned. "You're not thinking of an abortion are you?"

"I don't know!" I raise my voice.

"Ok... Just calm down a second." She says looking around the bathroom.

"Calm down? How can I calm down? This is a mess."

"Listen to me!" She grabs my arms and looks in to my eyes. "Everything will be ok. Whatever you decide I will stand by you, but I don't think you should be thinking of an abortion just yet... I think you should tell Michael. He has a right to know."

"I don't know how he will take it either though."

"Well you're both going to have to be fucking adults about this. You both decided to fuck, and now you got to pay the consequences."

I look down, wiping away my tears.

"You will have to talk to Michael at work?" Hayley says rubbing my arm.

I scoff and shake my head.

"He doesn't work there any more."

"What? Why?" She lowers her eyebrows and then opens her mouth, widening her eyes. "Marcus found out about you two?"

I nod.

"I fir- Marcus fired him."

"Oh shit." She runs her hands through her hair. "Ok... we will work something out."

I sigh heavily. She stares at me for a few seconds.

"You know where Michael lives don't you?"

I give her a look.

"Yeah... But I'm not telling him. Not yet."

"When are you going to get a chance to tell him again?! Let's go today. It might make things easier for you."

"How will it make anything easier? I'm still a married woman and if Marcus finds out about this he will go crazy! He'll kill Michael... he'll kill me!"

"You don't even want to be with Marcus though? Why don't you just leave him?"

"I...I can't."

"Why?!"

"Because!!! Because I love him!"

"No you don't Layla."

I look down.

"Ok fine! I'll see Michael."

She folds her arms and sighs.

"Well that's one step forward. I think that's the right thing to do." She rubs my arm.

I gather myself together and we walk out of the toilets. We go to her car and she starts driving. I try remembering the directions to his house, but we get lost a few times. I'm mixed with so many emotions right now. I'm scared, sad, worried.... And there's also a part of me that's excited to see Michael again. I just don't know what he will be like...