His Innocent Little Doll:Family

Chapter Eighty Five 'No More'

I wanted to go back to my field, it was cold here.......so cold......
The darkness had completely engulfed me but I tried to press on, I had to keep walking. My body wouldn't allow me to stop no matter how tired and cold I got. My vision was still as black as night yet I could hear the crunch of leaves under my feet and feel the harsh sharp edges of twigs as they pierced my bare feet.
I couldn't hear Diamond no more, she had left me long ago I hoped she was ok. On the other hand I felt angry that I was battling this alone, I was scared! I needed someone with me!
The motherly instincts that had once took over my heart appeared to be gone, there was no love inside me in fact I felt nothing other than the fear of walking into this unknown.
Surely it would end soon..........

No I was still going....
My body was frozen and I felt heavy, like dead weight carrying the horrors of my life on my shoulders. If I wasn't so cold I would have noticed my knees beginning under the pressure of it all.
"Please...I want stop" I cried silently hoping the darkness would take pity on me.
"Please just.....just let me stop...I....can't go no further.....everything hurts" I continued but it was to no avail, I could still feel it pulling my legs forwards.

Suddenly I found myself dropping to the floor as some malevolent force threw me through the darkness. I kept my eyes tight closed as I laid there, I didn't want to see the thing that had pushed me. It was evil!
My body shivered violently feeling the thing trap me in a suffocating hug, it was trying to lull me into opening my eyes.
I couldn't do it!
I wouldn't do it!
It was then as I laid there I felt something else.........grass!
It wasn't like the grass in my field, no this one brushed against my face like a thousand razor blades. It was extremely painful but I still couldn't bring myself to sit up, not when that thing was still hovering over me.

Hours maybe even days passed before everything grow calmer once more.
It was still cold yet I was no longer being suffocated by whatever had invaded my presence before. Slowly opening my eyes I noticed I was still trapped by the darkness but now I could see shapes. I watched as the trees rocked violently in the wind, howling at the full moon that now blinded me with its brightness. The stars were beautiful and twinkling from behind the grey clouds.

My bones clicked as I reluctantly dragged myself to my feet, swaying as the wind rocked me. Looking around I found myself at the entrance of a graveyard. No wonder this place was so cold when the dead rested beneath my very feet. I jumped slightly as the gates slammed behind me making it clear there was no turning back, I had to keep going forwards. There was no way I would turn around and step back into the darkness, that thing would get me.

Taking a few step forwards I got my first glimpse at the many headstones decorating the field. My heart froze in my chest as I began to read them.
"In loving memory of.........Harleen Quinzel........"
Letting out a sob I sprinted over towards the crumbling piece of stone and dropped to my knees.
"Oh Harley I'm so sorry! This is all my fault" I sobbed running my fingers lightly over her name hoping it would magically fade and disappear from sight.
Leaning forwards I placed my lips against the cold stone.
"I love you" I whispered before resting my forehead against it and turning it to left where I spotted another name.
Pamela Lillian Isley
Pulling myself away from Harley I moved onto the next headstone and once again placed my lips against it.
"Ivy......I'm sorry"

My sobs became louder as I made my way through the cemetery. Every grave belonged to the people I had loved and lost, family members or friends who had passed on in my life. To see this many broke my heart, I had lost them all.

As I grew closer to the exit I noticed one last gravestone blocking the exit.
From here it appeared blank but on the ground in front laid a single red rose with what appeared to be blood dripping from its petals. Taking cautious steps towards it I felt my insides freeze up violently. All I could hear was my heart beating furiously, what was wrong with me?
Being careful not to destroy the Rose I once again kneeled in front of the headstone. Now that I was here I could see words on the stone clearly, it hadn't been blank after all.