His Innocent Little Doll:Family

Chapter Twenty Six 'Drunk'

Ember's POV
The air was tense, extremely tense.
I waited for a comment, a punch, anything but instead he looked at me blankly like his whole body had went into shut down.

"Daddy are you ok?" I whispered nervously trying to connect my eyes with his.
Still nothing!
Had I broken him?!
The whole situation was freaking me out and I was at lost on what to do or what else to say. I could understand completely if he was hurt because whether he wanted to deny it or not he had grew to love Harley. She had became a huge part of his life from doctor, lover to friend and ally. In the past he had been sure she would be by his side forever but so much had changed and even though he was The Joker, it didn't make it any easier to deal with.

"Daddy it's ok" I cooed reaching out for him only for him to flinch and shoot up in bed.
Quickly following I watched him intently, mentally preparing myself for whatever he was going to do or say.
"Da......" I began but was cut off by laughter, loud mad laughter.
MrJ had went from silent to hysterical.
This laugh was different and one I had never heard before.
My ears tingled and protested against the sheer highness of his tone.
It echoed throughout the room and I feared it would wake Peanut up with a terrifying fright.

Just when I thought he was going to calm down the laughter started once more, louder and colder. A lump began to form in my throat as my heart pounded, I was scared.
I regretted saying anything now, it wasn't my job to. Harley should have shown her balls and told him herself.
Even though he was scaring me I was also extremely worried about him.
What if he had finally lost his mind completely?

"Are you ok?" I called out loudly over him.
"I knew that girl was an idiot but this...." Mr J started only to break out into laughter once more.

"She's not an idiot! She's marrying the person she loves!" I snapped back feeling my anger build at his insult towards Harley.
"Hahahaaaaa well you would think that little doll, you're just as idiotic" Mr J cackled maliciously.
"Do not take your anger out on me! It's not my fault she's getting married to someone that isn't you! I don't see what's so idiotic about it" I frowned sternly as I mentally prepared myself for the fight that was surely about to happen.

"Little dollllll! People like us don't do normal, marriage isn't in our vocabulary" he grinned patting my cheek.
"But why can't we?" I questioned in confusion, my head pounding as the wheels started to spin uncontrollably.
"Because it's absurd ahahahaaaa the whole facade is meaningless" he exclaimed gesturing widely.
"You said it wouldn't be so bad!" I pointed out with tears in my eyes.
I didn't understand why I was upset or why his words were effecting me so much. I should have expected this but I didn't realise how badly his words were going to hurt.

"What wouldn't be so bad?" Mr J asked frowning at me slightly.
"Marriage! You said it wouldn't be so bad!" I croaked trying to hold in the floods.
"Are you hallucinating little doll? Do you need a doctor?" He mocked checking over me with fake worry.
"No! You said at Frosty's wedding that marriage wouldn't be such a bad idea" I snapped feeling my anger starting to reach boiling point.
"Watch that mouth of yours little doll!" He sneered gripping my chin tightly.
"I'm just telling the truth and you know it!" I gritted out as I reached up and wrapped my hand around his wrist, trying to pull him off me.
"Even if you are do you really think I'd marry you ahahahaaaaaa" J laughed evilly.
"What?" I whimpered feeling my heart crack slightly.
"Aw you did how sweet!"

"Why wouldn't you?" I gulped fearing the answer I was about to receive.
"Why wouldn't I ahahahaaaaaa! Look at yourself little doll! At first you were so innocent, so sweet and now you're nothing but a thorn in my side. Why do you think I'm never around? If I had to listen to that whiny, pathetic little voice of yours all day I'd put a bullet through my head, better yet I'd put one through yours. Sometimes I wish I was in Arkham just so I could get a bit of piece ahahahaaa! You're old news doll, tainted right down to the core. You're also a complete slob, I feel embarrassed to be seen with you. The queen of Gotham is an embarrassment. Do you really think you would still be around if it wasn't for Diamond. Matter of fact the reason you're still here is because you're good for breeding nothing more!" Mr J confessed with a wicked grin.

It hurt!
It hurt so bad!
I thought he loved me!
It was all a lie!
I felt so embarrassed and the lack of clothing suddenly made me feel extremely violated.
"I hate you! I hate you so much!" I sobbed hatefully pushing against his chest with all the strength I had until he fell back on the bed.
Grabbing my robe I quickly covered my shaking frame and jumped off the bed.
Head hanging low to the ground I stumbled towards his door with my tear glazed vision.
"Little doll! Wait!" I heard him call out with a sigh.
Turning back I looked at him with all the hatred I could muster.
"I wish I had never met you clown!" I spat bitterly ripping the door open and storming out.
"LITTLE DOLL!"

  Once I was out of sight I finally kept myself sob aloud.
He had finally completed his breaking of me.
My heart and head were shattered across the ground.
Heading down the stairs I made my way into the lounge and straight towards Mr J's bar. Grabbing the nearest bottle of whiskey I slumped down the wall and crumbled to the floor.
I needed to drink!
I needed the pain to go away.
Unscrewing the cap I brought the bottle to my lips and began to down it. It burned my threat immensely but I didn't care, I needed him gone from my head.
Pulling the bottle away I noticed I had downed half already making the tears flow faster.
I had lost sight of everything, he had drove me to this!

Feeling my heart still aching I began to drink again with tears streaming down my face.........