RECLAIM-What I Lost -||-SR Love Story-||-

Chapter 30- Side-Effects Of A Kiss

*Colby's P.O.V*

What the holy fuck is actually happening with me?

These are the words that keeps rotating in my head since the day me and Azra shared our first kiss inside her room when she was looking vulnerable in those tiny towel.

Damn, the single thought about it is enough to wake up my nerves. I have no single idea whats happening with me. Im not aware of what my next action is whenever Im around her.

I was lying awake in my bed with Sarah fast asleep in my arms. I just couldnt sleep. I was staring at the ceiling wishing it would speak up and solve my shits.

Three times.

We kissed three times. And thats all it took for me to be mentally intoxicated. Distracted from all directions. Shit ton of confusions.

I snapped when Sarah shifted in my arms and I took that as a chance to take my arm. Its scary that our relationship is slowly drifting away. I can feel the changes myself.

No sparks, no electricity, no feel, no emotions, no passion.........Im even unsure if there is love.

Jon said that Azra and Roman never kissed and that they were only having a good time, nothing intimate. He was throwing a tantrum as to mine and Roman's strange behaviours behind Azra. But I can answer him only if I know it.

But then why did they act like they were about to go a little rough?

Why put that act infront of me?

Why did Azra put on so much of show?

To make me jealous?

Well, it worked more than it was supposed to. So much, that I wanted to beat the living shit out of him. I didnt like that feeling. It felt like my feet were pasted on the floor when I watched them in such a position.

I was burning inside. But Roman....Roman did that on purpose. He fucking looked me in the eyes with that look! That look which I could still feel'em staring at me. That challenging look!

I immediately sat up on the bed attempting to shake that feeling off. I rubbed my face tiredly as I was getting no sleep. Well, another sleepless night.

Thank you Azra! Note the sarcasm..

That kiss. That kiss we had today in Roman's locker. It was..full of needy. Im sure its that kiss which is keeping me awake. Its the sound of her moaning right beside me ear, which is making me lay awake.

Its those plump lips which gets me easily distracted. Everytime I get closer to her its her vulnerability that makes me want to slam her on a nearby wall and rip those fabrics off of her until she lets the world hear my name.

Its those eyes which makes me loose track. As cliche as it may sound it literally takes me to places. Places where I have no option but to protect her. Protect her from my next move.

Here we go again...

Now this is what I was talking about. These thoughts are too heavy to focus on something else, heck even sleep.

"Th-Then what about you kissing Sarah?!"

A soft smile etched on my lips at that which turned into a slow chuckle. No matter how many times she denies, she was jealous. She forgot that she was talking to Colby Lopez. The one who knows her like an open book.

That tone which screamed jealousy when she asked that. The same tone she have used when we were young. Her eyes and that tone can never lie. That was so fucking cute. So much that it made my anger go away for a split second. Right then I wanted to laugh.