I Love You, But You? (Jeffmads/Hamburr)

We both made mistakes.

Thomas POV

He quickly removes his hands.

"Thomas, I forgave you, I can't do anything more," He says tense. He walks away from me quickly and goes to his room.

I stay alone in the living room. My tears are falling more and more. I ruined all my chances with him. I sniffle and look at the floor. I don't deserve him. It will be hard to get up next to someone who does not feel anything for me anymore.

I should not have drunk so much. I should not have done that. Now James doesn't want to be with me anymore. I feel bad.

James...is...indescribable actually. He changes his emotion. Sometimes he is cute and scary. Today he got mad at me, but at school he was...normal if I can say that like that. More tears flood my face.

Maybe he can not behave normally with me. Maybe he forgive me for....I dont know.

I sniff and wipe my tears. I head into the bathroom and look at the mirror. I look like nothing. My eyes are red and my face has dried tears. I put water on my face and dry it with my washing.

He told me he had feelings for me? But the way he told me that makes me puzzled. He said it as if it meant nothing. Maybe he lied to me. I often have bad thoughts, but ...

I see that everything around me darkens. Black. I feel my body let go, my legs shake and my feet can't hold my own weight. I try to move on, but instead I fall on the cold floor of the bathroom. I can't see anymore....I am dead? What is happening? I feel my body, but I can barely control it.

"Thomas, can I come in?"

Jemmy?

"Thomas, do you hear me?"

Yes, I hear you.

"I heard a noise and...I came to see if everything is fine," He says.

I'm fine, Jemmy.

"Well, since you do not answer me, I'm coming now," He says. I hear the door opens.

What?

"Tho...Thomas?" He says his voice filled with horror.

I don't understand anything anymore.

I feel my body body is raised.

I'm in the arms of James ??? If only I could see. I feel that my arms are abandoning me to something more comfortable.

"Thomas answer me !!!"

But I'm talking to you...He can not hear me ???

I hear him sing.

I...can't be...dead. It isn't possible.

I feel a hand on my forehead. I force to open my eyes, but it's as if everything had let go.

I hear several nosy of footsteps, James must be running in circles.

"Maybe I should...called someone," He says in a very worried voice.

I don't know how, my eyes obey me and open. The first thing I see is the ceiling and I'm on a bed that's not mine. I move my body so I can stretch.

"Thomas ??? You're awake!!!???? Thanks God !!!! "

I feel arms embrace me vigorously. My eyes are a little blurry, but I get a little to see the clothes of the person.

A light blue sweater.