I Love You, But You? (Jeffmads/Hamburr)

You doubt me?

Thomas POV

I open my eyes.

"Thomas, you should have slept tonight," Aaron laughs. I am in the dining room.

"Before lunch, the teachers says we can do what we w..."

"Where is James?" I ask.

"James went over there with Dolley," Aaron says.

THIS BITCH !!!!

I get up looking for James.

I leave and hear noises. I am getting closer. The noise comes from behind a door. I open the door and see something that makes me feel nauseous, that makes me want to vomit, that breaks my heart.

Dolley kissing James and James who brings her closer to him. Tears fall from my eyes.

I stand up abruptly, my face sweaty. I gasp quickly. I'm looking at myself. I'm in pajamas on the bed. I turn and see James. James too cute when he...

I feel something burn my throat, something that wants to go up.

I put a hand in front of my mouth. I get out of bed and run to the bathroom.

I collapse on the floor and vomit in the toilet.I feel bad. I feel a lot of nausea coming. I vomit several times. My tears are falling. I take paper and wipe my lips.

"Why, I'm not strong enough?" Nausea comes back. I feel arms taking me in a hug. I jump.

"Shhh....You're strong Tommy," Says a voice. It's James. He walks away a bit to make me round. I vomit. James walks away and returns. He hands me a packet of handkerchief. I take it and avoid his eyes. I wipe my mouth.

"Tommy...are you okay?" Asks James.

"Yes...I'm fine," I say, avoiding visual contact. He puts his hand on mine.

"Thomas?" Asks James. I do not answer.

"Did you eat well yesterday?" Asks James. I still don't answer. James sighs and hugs me. My tears are falling.

"If you want, you can answer me later," He says in a soft voice. It's been a long time since I heard him talk like that. I love hearing him talk like that with me. It's just beautiful. I sniffle.

"J...James?" I ask.

"Yes?" Asks James.

"Are you....no nothing," I say. James takes his arms off me. I don't want him to see me.

I am a burden to him. I am an idiot. Maybe he will go back with her. I am a burden, even my mother abandoned me.

I just know show to James how weak I am.

Tears are falling more and more.

"Thomas ..."

I raise my head. James is in front of me. He looks worried. He puts a hand on my face. He's drying my tears.

"You're not a burden," He says. I spoke aloud. He gives me a warm smile.

"You are strong," He says. His voice is beautiful.

"You think I'll let you go, are you?" Asks James. I'm grimacing.

"Don't you trust me?" Asks James. I am watching him. He looks disappointed. I shake my head.

"I...I..." I can't tell him. James smiles at me.

"Thomas, you do not have to lie to me," He says softly, but a little disappointed.