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42 | good days & bad days

I don't give two flying shits what kind of person you are. You can be the peppiest person in the world or you can be that person who always sees everything negatively. You are going to have both good days and bad days. You are going to have a day that's really good and impossible to measure up to, and ends up getting you through the next few days. And you're going to have those low days that just make you question everything about everything and make you wonder why you even bother trying anymore. 

You know what though? You're also going to have a lot of in between days, where they may not be very good days, but they're not terrible either. There is nothing wrong with having days where, when someone asks you how its going, you say something like "ehhh" or "meh" or "okay". Those days aren't bad and you shouldn't be ashamed. Not every day is an extremity. 

Why am I ranting about this?

I was having one said day yesterday, and when I was asked by customers how my day was and I told them, honestly, quite a few of them were all "You woke up this morning. Any day you wake up should be a good day" or they were "It doesn't cost money to have a good day." ORRR someone said "Well think of all the people who lost stuff because of the hurricanes. Nothing is as bad as that." 

It's like. I didn't say I was having a bad day. I just wasn't having a particularly good day either? It was an in between day and I'm really annoyed that people think that you have to have good days 24/7. 

Guess what else? 

If every day is a good day, you stop appreciating the fucking good days. You have to have a bad day in there as well as the good days. Otherwise it just doesn't matter. And there's always going to be good days, but you have to be willing to look for them. 

I probably have depression (it's not like clinically diagnosed because doctors around here suck and tell me it's all in my fucking head), but I not every day is a bad day for me. I have some really good days. 

I'm not pessimistic. I'm not optimistic. I'm realistic. 

I have no idea where this ended up, but I needed to vent. Thank you all for listening.