The boy with the Dragon and the girl with the Bow "2". [Mericcup]

Chapter 31

(A/N: Heya! ^^ I try to spare this 'he said – she said' stuff this chapter at a part [you'll know when] and just write what Merida says in italics and Hiccup stays normal. My PC still crashes sometimes, or at least fails to connect to the internet, but I'll try to fix it for the times I upload! Also, I was at a friend today, playing Corpse Party again and we made it from the beginning of chapter 2 to the end of chapter 4, and this game is playing with my mind I'm so done right now @___@ :DD Anyways... Have fun reading! I hope I hit some feels :) ^^)

Hiccup's POV

I didn't want to wake up. The moment my eyes opened and my dreams from the night disappeared, I felt the urge to cry. Why? Five years. I'm missing my old friends... We had so much fun. And now it seems like I was left behind. Like they lost their spirit. Their temper. Their everything. Is it fair? Is it fair, that they lived five painful and horrible years, while I just skipped five days like it was nothing? Is it fair, that I found love, while others lost theirs? Is it fair, that I am going to marry, while someone else waited five, painful, hurting years for my return? To tell me she loves me. To tell me she misses me? Is it fair? These thoughts gave me a headache. I pressed my arm over my eyes, trying to stop the tears from dripping, but they found their way and slid down my face. I tried so hard to calm down. The silence in my room helped me focusing on my breathing, but someone interrupted it. “Hiccup?” Her voice was so soft at that moment, like the voice of an angel. A caring, loving angel. But it just made me dig my fingernails into my palm and I bit my lower lip. “Hey, are ye alright?” I tried to speak. I wanted to tell her all my sorrows and pain, but my mouth was sealed, just as if something held me back from talking. What was it? The feeling that she won't change her mind to stay here, or the feeling, that she would actually say it? Her soft hand placed itself on my arm, still covering my eyes, failing to hold back a few single tears. It hurts. A few more days and everyone could have been dead. It hurts. I will never see them again. It... “Hurts...”, I stammered and her hand lifted from my arm, causing her warm, soft touch to fade and let the place, her hand lay on, grow cold again. I felt the mattress moving and a deep breath escaped my nose. Merida just stood up, I guess. Her feet barley made a sound on the wooden floor underneath her. She moved around the bed, getting closer to my side, kneeling on the bed frame whilst laying her head on the mattress, right next to me. I felt her fingers roaming through the ends of my hair and stroking my shoulder. Even though she isn't saying anything, she's still able to comfort me. I lifted my arm a few millimeters to look at her, hoping she won't notice, but at the moment she smiled at me, I pulled my arm over my eyes, turning my face to her. I wasn't laying directly at the edge of the bed but close to it. Merida lay down next to me to fill this gap between me and the edge, wrapping her arms around me as I did the same. I held her close so she won't fall off the bed and, mainly, because I needed her right now. Her head rested on my shoulder and mine did the same on hers. I could feel our hearts pounding in our chests and slowly synchronize with each others heartbeats. My lips finally separated and so I spoke: “I had a dream, last night.” “Was it bad?” “No... it wasn't. It was a good dream, actually.” “Tell me about it.” “I dreamed about my childhood, more or less...” She stroked her hand over my neck and through my hair, while her other hand was still placed on my back, touching it softly. “I dreamed about the fun I had with my friends and the dragons. I dreamed about the dragon races. All the memories came up... even those with Astrid.” I heard a silent wheeze from Merida but her hands didn't stopped moving. I pressed my face against her shoulder and let some tears roll, causing them to wander over to her, dripping down her back and shoulders and giving her goosebumps. “Ye miss the old times, do ye?” It was silent for a while, because I didn't feel like answering such an obvious question. “I'm sorry. But I'm not able to give ye the old moments back. I can only create new ones.” She was right. I should just move one. I have a wonderful fiancee, I am planning my life with her. It sure is sad, that I lost five years, but that seems to be the thing. Even if it seems like a short time for yourself, finding love, living dangerous, exploring other worlds, it is a long time for someone else, living a routine, hoping someone will get back, but in the end, we all move on. “It's alright. You already gave me amazing moments to remember. I love you.”, I whispered in her ear and let my hands roam over the upper part of her back, holing her closer than before. “I love ye too. But if ye squeeze me like that, I'll suffocate.” I chuckled and stopped pushing her too close and she sighed happy, before giggling a bit. She pushed herself back, so her gorgeous blue eyes could catch a gaze at my green ones and she leaned closer to my face to kiss me. I met her halfway and our lips touched softly, making the kiss tender but intense. I leaned in further but our kiss suddenly broke, followed by a 'whoa!', from Merida, as she slipped over the edge and landed on the floor. My eyes widen and I felt so stupid. We were cuddling at the edge of the bed, it's pretty obvious that she'll fall out. “Oh god, I'm sorry, are you hurt?”, I utter hasty and she just growls a bit, rubbing her back, while her eyelids blocked the beautiful sight of her eyes. “I may not be hurt... but at least I am awake... now.” Her comment was followed by a silent growl and laughter to cheer me up. If someone would have told me, you can fall in love with the same person more then once, I would have laughed... but Merida... I fall in love with her every single day I wake up and see her face.