Envie De Voyager

Where Have The Black Roses Gone?

Three months. That is how long I have spent working on Evanescence.

It started as a project that I saw as the dissolution of everything that happened before it—exactly why it was given the name Evanescence. A story and a Suabara that were made by deconstructing all that had led up to it. Throwing into trash whatever I had beforehand and starting anew.

All things seem perfect until you step out of the light.

Looking at Evanescence now, I now see that my placement of events were not the best. I now see that somewhere in between, I forgot the story's point. I only aimed to get to the next milestone. I looked only to what I thought of as the next step towards development—with no regard for how I could get there.

I forgot the core of the story.

After taking a long hiatus from actually writing chapters for it and a few hours of scrutinising my work, I've come to the conclusion that what I have made is not Suabara's story. It was what I wanted Suabara's story to be like. It was filled with chapters that weren't written with love, but with boredom. I could feel it in every word. They struck me not.

So I will cut its life short.

Because of the extra time I will be getting, I will be making weekly chapters to Evanescence after I finish planning it. This time, a day will be allotted for its development, instead of thirty-minute bursts. This time, I will stick to the idea behind the characters more closely. Decrease the target number of chapters for a quicker and more active work.

The name won't be changed, though. Evanescence has a meaning both inside and outside the context of the story.

"In the end, it was ever only going to be ephemeral, no? The evanescence of a happy life. I had thought that I could be left in peace. I thought that he would be left alone. How hasty—no, how foolish—of me to think of it like that. There is no end to the greed of people, but there is an end to my patience. I will abstain from this no longer. An insurgence against him by my hand... I like the sound of that."

Furthermore, I'm not going to take down the first Evanescence. I'm keeping it there, though it will be changed to 'Evanescence Prototype' after the TLA. I will be finishing a few more of the planned chapters in an attempt to set it back straight.