The Playlist // Ricci Rivero Fanfiction (On-Hold)

Kabanata 24

Ahia: 

Ricci's back. 

Wait, is this for real? I froze staring at the message. He can't just be back! Hindi naman sa hindi ko na siya gustong makita pero, I was just too shocked. Without hesitation, tumayo ako sa aking upuan and bid goodbye. I need to go home. I need to go to him. 

"Guys, sorry but I need to go home. I'm going to tell Dash about this and Kath can replace me for the lead vocalist tomorrow. Last show nanaman din." Nagligpit na ako ng aking mga gamit and stood up. Aalis na sana ako pero Azrael stopped me. 

"No! You can't just leave. This is the highlighted part of your shows Ina, and they want to see you there!" 

"I'm really sorry but I need to go home. Katherine is a great singer naman, just tell the people I have someone to see and it's very important. I need to go." 

"Someone to see? Ricci diba?" Wala akong nasabi because yun ang totoo. Who the hell cares if I need to see him? We barely saw each other for how many months now. I would throw away everything just to see him. Just to say that I'm sorry. 

"Well, wala akong magagawa. Fine, leave." Hindi ako sure sa response. Whether be happy or annoyed, kaya I bolted through the door and sumakay sa isang taxi papuntang hotel. I didn't think about the check out, kinuha ko nalang lahat ng gamit ko and headed sa airport. 

During the car ride, I texted ahia that I'm coming home. Hindi nga lang na send kasi walang signal. Ngayon pa talaga? Binayaran ko na ang taxi and headed inside. Pagkatapos kong mag pa security check, dumiretso na ako para bumili ng ticket. Buti nalang may flight ngayong 8:30pm. I glanced at my watch and it's now 8pm. 

I tried to get a signal at buti nalang meron na dito. Nakita kong na send na pala yung text, buti nalang. Nakaraan pa ang ilang minuto, tumawag sa akin sa ahia. Walang pag aalinlangan, sinagot ko ang kaniyang tawag. 

"Ina, are you coming home?" 

"Yes po, I'm at the airport now. Nag-aantay lang ako sa aking flight." 

"Oh, okay. Good. What time ka darating?" 

"Mga 9:50 pm siguro kuya if hindi ma d-delay." 

"Sige, call me if you're here okay? Susunduin kita." I said okay to him and turned off the phone call. Saktong sakto, tinawag na kami for boarding. Once I arrived at my seat, pinatugtug ko yung playlist and this time, 18 by One Direction yung nag play. 

To Ahia: 

nasa plane na'ko :> 

I turned my phone into airplane mode and closed it. Huminga ako ng malalim and pinikit ang aking mga mata. This better be good, since I ditched my last show for him. 

~ 

Asan na ba yun siya? Sabi ko sa aking sarili. It's already 10pm and I've been waiting here for 10 minutes now. I busied myself sa aking phone when someone scared the shit out of me. It was kuya. I rolled my eyes and hugged him naman. 

"Oh, let's go? Sorry na traffic ako eh hahaha." 

"Palagi ka naman traffic." He just laughed about it and nag drive na kami papunta sa bahay. I don't know pero I'm feeling very nervous right now. 

The drive was not that long kaya I'm disappointed. I'm probably sounding like a coward now kasi dati, gusto kong umuwi na siya pero ngayong nandito na siya, I feel like a snail crawling back into it's shell. (a/n: no offence, but I hate snails) 

Pinatay na ni kuya yung engine ng sasakyan at ako'y lumabas na. The house is lit with a lot of lights right now. Wala namang nagbago. Kinuha ko na yung bags ko galing sa back seat, and when I straighten up, there I saw him standing in front of the house. It's really him. 

I dismissed my thoughts at nagpatuloy nalang sa pagkuha ng aking bag. Didiretso sana ako sa loob when he spoke. Bwiset naman oh. My tears are starting to fall, pero I blinked them back para mawala. 

"Walang hug? I thought you missed me?" I heard him laugh a bit. I did missed you. 

"Welcome back Ricci." Then I went inside the house. Nakita kong nag shrug si kuya tapos the both of them ay sumunod narin papunta sa loob. 

Pagpasok ko sa loob, nakita kong may decorations na sila for Halloween. Buti nalang hindi Christmas kasi anlayo pa nun. May foyer kasi ang bahay namin kaya may pinto pa bago mo marating ang salas. Nakita ko doon sila mom, dad, the Riveros and another girl. Oh, it's Ellie. 

"Ina! Welcome back. Akala namin, bukas ka pa uuwi? Napaaga ata?" They exchanged looks which I interpreted na si Ricci yung reason. It is pero I can't just say that! All of us are here na kasi. 

"Oo nga po eh, akala ko rin po bukas pinayagan na kasi akong umuwi kasi last show nanaman din." I lied. 

"Ate Ina, hindi mo ba kakamustahin si kuya Ricci dun?" Gelo talaga, kahit kailan. 

"Ah, well, um.. how was your stay I guess?" Aaoisdgnosdl. Why did I stuttered? 

"It was great. Oh, this is Ellie nga pala. Ellie Wilson. My girlfriend." I knew it. I sighed and smiled at them. Nakita ko rin na nandito rin si achi Des. Ngayon, ako'y lilisan na. 

"Sige po, I'll be in my room. Mag u-unpack lang ako." 

"I'll go with you." Lumingon ako and it was Ricci. He kissed Ellie's cheek and tinulungan niya ako sa pagbuhat ng bags ko. 

Umakyat na kami papunta sa aking kwarto. It was an awkward moment kasi all eyes were on us. When we reached my room, kinuha ko na yung bag ko para ako nalang ang mag lagay sa hamper. But he didn't budge. 

"Akin na nga! Ano bang problema mo?" Still, he didn't made a move. 

"Ricci ano ba! Sabi ko akin na yan, I can handle it myself!" Binitawan niya ang dalawang bag tapos niyakap niya ako. I tried to push him away pero hindi siya nagpatinag. He hugged me even more. Hindi ko namalayan that my tears are flowing like waterfalls. 

We stayed there for a while. I admit that I want to stay like this gaya nung dati, pero it's not the same anymore, may boundaries na. Kumawala ako ng una and wiped the tears. I saw that he's also tearing up. 

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being so self-centered, akala ko kasi wala kang nararamdamang iba kundi friendship. I'm sorry na hindi ko napansin lahat ng ginagawa mo noon, I'm just so sorry for everything. Pero, I think it's all too late now." 

He was silenced and tiningnan niya lang ako. Umupo ako sa aking kama at binuksan ang aking bedside table. Kinuha ko yung notebook na binigay niya noon. I'm gonna give it back to him now. 

"I wrote this ever since you left me. You can read that anytime and you can keep it. I just thought I can still share my thoughts even though... you have a girlfriend now." 

He only nodded at lumabas ng kwarto pagkatapos tinanggap yung notebook. I guess it ends here? Hihiga na sana ako when the door opened again. Ricci was holding a rectangular box, and gave it to me. 

I gladly accepted it, and opened the box. First, it contained all of our polaroid pictures simula nung sa DLSU family day. Hindi sa pagmamayabang, pero I feel more of his girlfriend than his actual girlfriend. After nung pictures, may maraming handwritten letters. 

"I forgive you." Those were the only words I wanted to hear ever since he went away.

~ 

song: Kathang Isip by Ben&Ben 

a/n: u should listen to the song while reading this chapter kasi I'm listening to that when I'm writing this chapter.