ironstrange headcanons

Trans!Tony

soo, i have been obsessed with trans!tony for a lot of time, i decided to write this for my friend Eric whom i love lots❤️

tony has been feeling awful since he has gotten the top surgery done. his chest aches and spends the most part of the day and night in the bathroom, crying and puking whenever the pain kicks in. although, he knows that this is what he has always wanted, that he has to suffer to reach his goal. maybe his age is making it harder for the body to assess all of that, making the transition hard and more painful. he doesn't eat nor sleep, therefore Stephen is really concerned about his boyfriend.
whenever Stephen doesn't find Tony anywhere in the house, he immediately goes for the bathroom, always finding the smaller man crying curled up on the ground, his arms around his chest and the drains attached to the chest showing. he is shaking and whimpering. stephen feels a wave of helplessness and sadness running inside him, sending shivers down his spine. he walks towards the smaller man and sits on the ground, getting tony's body on his lap. he touches his chest right down the reactor and flinches. he is freezing.
"baby, i know it hurts and you feel like you're going to puke in a matter of a second, but you are freezing. you are shaking both for the pain and your body temperature. this is not going to help, honey, it's is just making it worse. you need to rest and sleep. let me help you."
tony sobs in the bigger man's chest, clenching his fists into his shirt, looking for physical contact
"i'm- i'm so sorry" the mechanic says, looking up to stephen, tears gathering at the corner of his eyes.
"look, there is nothing to apologize for. you were warned by the doctor, you knew this was gonna happen soon. your age is affecting this, but you're gonna be okay eventually. i am here baby. i'm gonna do a spell that will make you feel better when we're in our bedroom and we are both on the bed, because your pain will pass on me." stephen says, gently caressing tony's cheek, wiping away the tears
"don't. please i don't want you to feel this-"
stephen interrupts tony by kissing him softly on the lips, smiling after the action.
"honey.. i experienced over thousands and thousands of deaths when i fought against Dormammu, and every single one was worse than the one before. this is nothing compared to that, okay? i can take it but i might fall asleep. let me get you comfortable, clear?"
tony nods and closes his eyes, clinging onto stephen meanwhile he takes him to bed, giving him soft little kisses on his cheek and nose, comforting his boyfriend in the sweetest way possible.
when stephen tucks tony in bed he groans in pain, making stephen sigh
"shh baby. look, you're going to feel better now. " stephen puts his right hand on the smaller man's chest, letting his magic get into his body. as tony sighs in relief, feeling a sudden warmth in his body, stephen whimpers in pain, therefore tony opens his eyes worried
"stephen?! oh god i'm so sorry. i really shouldn't have-"
"no. i'm fine, okay? you don't feel pain anymore, don't you?"
tony shakes his head in agreement, looking down at his own chest
"if i only.. never listened to Steve, now i would have been okay. was this the right choice to make? am i just too old for this?"
stephen sighs and groans, wrapping his arms around tony, tracing the scars on his chest and kissing tony's right pectoral.
"tony.. you know that this was the right choice to make. this is you. you shouldn't neglect your real self. i understand that Steve thought that for him this might have been a stupid idea because of your age, but what can you expect from somebody who is supposed to be dead? he is close minded, he can't understand what this means. i love you, more than words could ever explain. these scars.. they're the marks of your battle. our battle. this is what will make you feel comfortable with your body. you won't need to bind your chest every time. you won't struggle with breathing anymore and you will feel free."
tony smiles and stephen looks up to him, softly grinning
"steve never accepted me for who i was. he always referred me as a woman, and that did hurt me. he found out that i was transgender when.. we had sex for the first time. he looked so disgusted by that, like i was a monster. i was so scared that he was going to do something bad to me since he is a very violent guy. my intimate parts won't ruin our relationship, won't it?.." tony says, sadly.
"babe, listen to me. i do not care if you have male of female body parts, okay? what i love is everything that is inside you. i love your heart. your heart is what makes you, not your body, although you look gorgeous." he giggles and kisses tony on the nose "sex isn't even that much important in a relationship, people don't usually ask things about that, but since we are a gay couple they will ask us who is the bottom. i would normally say that i am the bottom but.. the circumstances says that i top. although i would let you top me." they both bursts into laugh and tony playfully hits him on the shoulder "you can do everything with your magic, can't you create like, a fake dick so i can top you?" tony suggests giggling and joking.
"baby if i could do that i would have already done it." he answers back, giving tony a kiss on the forehead "i don't mind you topping me, love. you just make me feel loved and comfortable with my body. all the sweet things you tell me every time just.. make me melt. i love you!" stephen smiles and blushes at his words "all the things i say.. i mean it. it's true when i say you're beautiful. it's true when i say that your body is perfect the way it is. you were just born with a technical problem of your genitals but it's all perfect apart from that. the reactor often makes me fall asleep at night when i can't sleep.. because i know that you're here with me. i love every single thing about you and your body.. every flaw, which i think it's not, is everything that makes you unique. you see, i'm glad i can say this is all mine. just. all. mine." stephen gives tony kisses all around his chest, which he appreciates, softly caressing the scars and smiling between the kisses.
"i love when you do this. god, i love you so much" tony strokes stephen's hair and traces circles on his back, grinning.
"now that i have done this.. will you sleep, baby? do it for me. you need it, otherwise it will be harder for you to recover." stephen says, carefully placing his head on the smaller man's chest, staring at his boyfriend's brown whiskey eyes.
"i won't sleep unless you hold me."
"who said i was gonna let go of this perfect position?" he says giggling "cmon, sleep now, baby. i promise you will feel better after a good night of sleep."
"goodnight kiss?"
stephen rolls his eyes and climbs up to reach the mechanic lips, connecting them in a passionate kiss. after a few minutes of a make out session, stephen pulls away and kisses his nose
"a promise is a promise. now try to sleep, love."
tony nods and makes himself comfortable on the bed, using stephen as blanket and rock to survive in this world made of an ocean of insecurities.

me updating 2 times in 2 days!!!???
wow!!
amazing.
this was so cute, i hope you all liked it!