Lone (BxB)

Chapter 22

After healing Alexis and Andrew, I really needed to lie down. After Andrew, I didn't even have to find a bed, for someone had carried me into Jason's. Squirming around, I tried to sit up so that I could think more clearly.

"You're awake..." normally when a voice like that takes me by surprise, I'd put up my fists and be ready to burn them to the ground. But this voice... is one that I can never get tired of hearing...

"Jason..."

"How are you feeling?"

"A little... well, very exhausted... Like I've just gone sleepless ten nights in a row... ran the Boston Marathon... and am surviving on only one cup of coffee..."

"A marathon? Heh, I'll have to put that on the agenda."

"Don't you dare... I want to be able to chase you down when I need."

"You think you can catch me?" 

"Duh, it's not like you're going anywhere, haha..." Jason didn't react. Too soon?

"Danny... earlier... when you-"

"Shh... It's my turn to say something to you... I'm sure you heard everything I told Andy..." He nodded his head to confirm. "Andy... Andy was a mistake, Jason... My gut... since day one, has told me that being with someone like him the way that I was was a mistake."

"How..."

"I... I never even met him in person... until yesterday... and he... my gut... My gut. My gut wants to pull underground and cover me with sludge just to avoid being around him and his idea that I would like him like that. When my gut gives me a bad stomachache, that's my sign that I'm about to make a mistake or I need to not... I avoided making that mistake again... Truth be told, I didn't even know him personally when we started talking. Heck, I still hardly know anything about him!"

"So... if you had the chance to... would you-"

"No... Jason, I never had real feelings for him... I was... I was lonely... Jason, all my life, I've been used to having people push me away and laugh at me, not with. I'm used to being the last person to be paired up with someone in a project. I'm used to meeting a guy who is, first of all, straight, and uninterested. He's a bisexual... so, I thought I could make something work... but, my gut was telling me that I was going in the wrong direction. Yes, perhaps our orientations are compatible... but we aren't... And that's not a regret I have. And Jason... if I really did want to be with him... I swear to you that I would have..."

He looked a little confused on how to react to that.

"I know that's a little weird, but I mean it. Dealing with loneliness is... it sucks. And that's probably less than the lightest way I can put it."

"I know... I know, Danny..."

"Jason... for that reason... I've learned that I must hold onto people... but not just anyone... I need to hold onto those who mean the most in my life... I've had to let go of people drowning me in my own sorrows... Releasing them only made me dive deeper... but I'd rather be suffocating under the abyss in my own loneliness than be sunk even lower by random, toxic, people..."

"..."

"Can you... Look at me?"

He struggled to look me in the eyes, so I pulled him to sit right next to me on his king-size bed.

"I... When I let go of people... I don't have any regrets... Letting go of that other guy... I don't regret that one bit. Had I not met you, I still would never have even thought of trying to rekindle things with him... But right now... I feel like I'm about to make the biggest regret if I don't say this..."

He gulped and closed his eyes, as though he were preparing to be guillotined by the man under the hood with the axe.

"Jason... I... I... I luh..." Screw this! "Jason, I love you!" I cringed my eyes and immediately looked away from him in fear that his response would be him be appalled by my feelings. "I love you, Jason... I-" I was silenced... Silenced by the most delicate texture in any life... The most sensible... The most exciting... the one that makes the butterflies in your stomach die once it happens... He leaned in more to me and laid me down on my back while he propped one knee behind him and laid the most amazing sensation upon my lips...

"I fucking love you, too, Danny... I fucking love you... more than you know..."

"I know, Jason... I know..." I replied as I pulled him in and giggled as he held my waist.

"What's so funny?" he said while chuckling. "Are you that ticklish?"

"I've only ever dreamed that I'd in this position... to actually be in it... I must be dreaming.... OW! OW! OW! Ow. Ow. Ow... Oh... ah.... Ohhh yeahh..." He knows my sweet spot...

He lifted his head back up against mine and dripped a bit of drool on my face. I don't mind it, though...

"Still think you're dreaming, my prince?"

"I must be in heaven..." I whispered in his face and pulled him next to me on the bed. He cuddled me in his hairy arms that slowly smoothened... this way I can feel the meat all chunked in his body... But the best part... I'm being embraced by Jason Powers, the most delicate, kindest, caring, strongest, comforting, silliest, straight-forward, daring, dashing, and loving (I'd have to write a book to continue this chain) guy I have ever met in any lifetime I have ever lived.... 

And that's the end of the Part 1 of Lone... Did you guys enjoy this story? How would you guys feel if I told you that Part 2 is being worked on? ;)

I would like to sincerely thank you for staying throughout this new journey. Your support means more than you may think, for I can hardly imagine many greater feelings than to know that awesome readers such as yourself are enjoying my work. So, thank you, once again, and I hope to see you all in the next story. ;)   

Until then, if you have any questions for any of the characters (including but not limited to Danny, Jason, Damien, Ms. Lowell, the Prime Alphas, Alexis, Andrew, Andy, Loathe, Animosity, Denial, or Griffon), please do not hesitate to ask, whether it's a question relating to the plot or a question to get to know them more personally.