To Create. To Live

Sticky Notes

Your thoughts and fears and celebrations all along your walls

Little pieces of life in neat little rows

Feelings and people on squares of neon yellow

Sometimes a diary sometimes a suicide note

Always conflicted

Bipolar expression captured day to day in the most public privacy available

Before you sleep and once you wake

What are you afraid of hiding tonight

Fighting and forgetting and trying to feel pretty

Apprehensions and victories and friends you don't see anymore

Not singing or dancing but quietly listening

You won and you cried and he texted you all night

A thousand things only you see

Sticky notes that always fall off

And the worry that this is all you get

A mechanical pencil and a book you read

Self-shames and friendaversaries

School praise masking the complaints 

And the day you stopped denying that he is all you think about

Your entire being, or at least your quieter voices

A three to five line personality

And the things you don't say out loud

You are impulse motivated

Sentiment designed

Your walls are covered in sticky notes

You aren't quite sure why