9 Boys 1 Choice

Sãu Paulo, Brazil

I wake up in Ashton's arms and I can tell he's still sleeping by how loud his snoring is. I gently push his arm off of me and get ready for the day. I was enjoying the shorter flights and today it was only 1 hour.

For some reason I woke up at 7 am and our plane doesn't leave for another three hours so I get breakfast.

After I'm done, I go to the hospital for Harry. He was only supposed to be there until 8:30 am and I decided to pick him up.

"Hi.. I'm here to get Harry Styles. What room is he in?" I ask a nurse.

"First room on the left." I nod as a thank you and walk in as he's putting his pants on.

"Harry.." I call for him.

"Hey Saphira.." he gives me a weak smile.

"How are you doing?" I ask concerned.

"A lot better. Let's get out of here." he laughs and I laugh with him.

We sit in silence on the way back to the hotel but I was okay with it.

"I miss you." he says but I don't know how to respond so I stay silent. Every inch of me wanted to kiss him but I had to stop myself.

"I miss you too Harry." the words came out of no where and I immediately regretted it.

"I'm still in love with you" he says so passionately.

"It doesn't matter anymore." I get out of the cab and find myself walking to Liam's room.

He opens the door and I give him a huge hug.

"It's been too long." I say into his ear.

"I know. I've missed you so much S." he says into my shoulder.

"Liam. I love you. I love you more than you know. You've been here for me for such a long time and I'm in love with you." it all comes out so fast and I know it's true because I've never said anything more true.

I figured it out, Liam was my best friend, my shoulder to lean on, I loved him. He made me feel happy and nothing was ever wrong when I was with him.

"Saphira.. I love you too. I want to be with you but.." he stops.

"But what?" I ask scared.

"We can't ever date." he says.

"What? Why?!" I ask surprised.

"Because what happens if we break up? We can't be friends again. Example 1, you and Michael are distant and so are you and Harry now." he says sadly.

"You're right." I admit in defeat.

"We'll still be best friends." he says and gives me a tight squeeze.

"Can I try something?" I ask seductively.

I lean in and kiss his lips for only a few seconds wishing it could last longer. He gave me a warm smile but I know he won't change his mind.

"Thanks for being smart about it." I wink at him and leave.

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I sing with 1D tonight and it was a lot of fun. I was mostly by Niall, Zayn, Louis, and Liam. Harry came over by me a few times but I walked away. Every part of me wanted to go back to him but I couldn't.

I walk into my own room in the hotel. It was time for me to have some alone time and figure things out. I don't want to date Zayn or Liam since they're my best friends. Maybe Louis or Ashton.

I forgot Emerald was coming tomorrow so I texted Luke real quick.

~Excited to see Em tomorrow?~

~Oh yes! What are you doing tomorrow?~ he asks.

~Nothing :(~

~All 3 of us should have a fun day together! I miss you and her!~

~Sounds good! :) See u tomorrow! Night~

~Night S <3~ He replies and I set my phone down then fall asleep.