9 Boys 1 Choice

New Orleans

We wake up at 3 am once again and get on the bus one after another. Our estimated arrival time is 7 this evening. We all go to our bunks and sleep for a good portion of the morning. I wait until Michael is asleep and walk over to Harry's bunk and make sure no one is looking.

I crawl into his bunk and he holds me close to him. I was starting to like this cuddling more than Michael's.
"It's about time" he murmurs. I just let out a small laugh and kiss his cheek. I wanted to stop whatever this was but something kept drawing me towards Harry. I laid by his side for a few hours then left.

It's 11 so I debate wether or not I should keep sleeping or go eat. I go eat food then get ready for the rest of our day. Kaitlyn and Emerald are up with me so we sit on the couch and talk about our boy problems.

"I don't want to leave Luke" Emerald says almost in tears.

"I know, maybe things will change?" I don't really know how to comfort her.. it's just reality and we can't stop it.

"Um Saphira, sorry you kinda saw what you did yesterday." Kait apologizes.

"Not a big deal let's forget it." I shutter.

Niall walks out and gives Kaitlyn a big hug. He says good morning to all of us and they go watch a movie together. Soon after Luke comes out to talk with Emerald about yesterday while I sit there and tweet at some people but still listen to their conversation.

"I don't know if we should stay together, I'll only get attached to you more" Luke says.
"But if we do then we can still be something Luke. I'll try to call and text as much as I can ok?" she begs.

He accepts and he hugs her and they lay down on the couch together, that's my cue to leave so I go see if Michael is awake. He is in our bunk watching some TV so I crawl in next to him.

"What time is it?" he asks impatiently.
"Almost 12:30"
"ughh 7 more hours" he whines.
"Well we could have some fun ya know?" I wink at him. He kisses me gently and I hold his face in my hands. He needs to find someone better than me, really.
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All of the fans are waiting for us outside our hotel so Michael and I run up to some fans and they give us slips of paper with their twitter usernames on them. I take some pictures and some girl even asks for my autograph. I loved seeing all of them. I walk over to a girl that looks about thirteen.

"I think you and Harry would make a cute couple!" she says shyly. Of course Harry walks over right away and signs her notebook.

"I think so too" he says and kisses my cheek. He leans over to the girl and whispers something then kisses her cheek too.

"I know you're just trying to make me jealous. how pathetic." I wink at him.

"And it obviously worked!" the girl shouted. We walk away and I feel Michael's eyes trained on the both of us. I turn to look at him and he gives me a disapproving look.
"Just friends." I mouth and he looks reassured.

Harry and I walk into the hotel together.
"See? even fans want us together!" he smirks and I push him.
"There's always a chance." I say.
"You should really just tell Michael that you have to end it." he says with pain in his voice.
"I can try, I'll see you later Harry." I blow him a kiss and he catches it. Michael grabs me and whispers something in my ear that I cant make out. But I just heard something about our own hotel room and I knew exactly where this was going.

We walk into the hotel room and he takes off his shirt. We both undress fully until he's naked and so am I. We slowly move towards each other and start making out. His hands are all over my chest while my hands run roughly through his hair. We somehow get on the bed and I'm on top of him. I can't do this, I know me and Michael can't get anymore serious because I know I have feelings for Harry.

"Is everything okay?" Michael moans.
"Yeah.. can we just.. lay down for a little? You have a show tomorrow so you need rest." That was a dumb excuse but what else was I supposed to say?
"You're right. Soon this will happen. Goodnight babe." he says sleepily.
"Night! Love you." and I lay down on on my side.
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I watch Luke walk over to Emerald and he picks her up, twirls her around, and hugs her tight. He puts his hand over her heart and she puts hers over her heart. Maybe that was their own way of saying I love you even though he couldn't say it out loud, it was too soon to say it.

The boys walk out on stage and of course Kaitlyn and Niall are making out behind the curtains as they normally do. I try to distance myself from Harry so I go hang out with Liam.
"Hey we haven't talked in awhile!" I say and hug him. He's so tall.
"I know! how've ya been?" he asks.
"Good. you?"
"Not too bad, are you and Harry a thing or something?" he says abruptly.
"No no no. I-" he cuts me off.
"Don't worry I was just wondering." he smiles at me then speaks again.
"Don't get caught up with him S. He won't stay with you if you leave Michael. He's done it to every other girl and I don't want you getting hurt." He looks really concerned and I actually start to believe me.
"Thanks Liam, think you could help me stay away from him?" I ask him because I know I can't resist by myself. He says "of course" and gives me a hug. He was such a good friend, I kiss his cheek and tell him good luck. He walks out onto the stage and I notice Harry looking at me before he walks out after Zayn.

So much has happened in the past week and I don't know what's going to happen next. We're going to Nashville next, I think about 5-10 more places and we leave the US.

I go chat with Luke and Em for a little bit.
"Hey Saph!" both of them say.
"Hey guys, so staying together or..?" I ask unsure of what the answer may be.
"I think so." Luke smiles at her and hugs her from behind.
"I'm happy for you guys! talk to you later." I walk away and sit with Michael. This doesn't feel right but he should be the only one who has a place in my heart.

I'm spending all day tomorrow with Michael and I'm gonna love it. Maybe I'll take some time with Naitlyn if it's not awkward. I miss them both.

We all head back to the hotel and try to get as much sleep for the road tomorrow.