tell me how to be

for you

all of this is for 

you,

everything.

it always was.

but i am not your fucking

doll

i am not something to be taken out

and thrust in the cupboard

when a prettier thing 

walks by 

you say these words, 

these words,

that lift me to the sky, to the point I

don't even mind

you can have a girlfriend, as long as we are

friends

but she's cheating on you and

you won't listen

and you can talk to other people, as long as we are

friends

but the people you talk to are bitches

and you don't care

and you can leave me, as long as we are 

friends

but i'm drowning

and you don't know

and i'm crumbling, and falling

and burning

i'm dying

but you won't listen

but you don't know 

or maybe,

you just don't care